Witty Profiles
Warning;
Before
you make
that first cut, remember--
You will find the blood and pain release addictive.
Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that
aren't deep and will heal easily--
They will get deeper.
They will scar.
They will take sometimes months to heal.
And years for the scars to fade.
If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your
body think again.
It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant
state of shame.
Even if you are the most honest person ever to live--
You will find yourself lying to the people you
love.
You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if
their hands were dipped in poison.
You will be terrified that they will feel something under the
cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be
touched.
Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut
because you don't know how bad it will be.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.
Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around
thinking about cutting--
Cutting and covering up cutting.
And just wait till that first time you cut "too
deep."
And you freak out because the blood won't stop...
And you are gasping...
And you feel yourself shaking all over.
You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but
you can`t tell anyone.
So you sit there alone...
Praying it will be okay--
Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...
But you will, and
further....
Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your
cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the
ER.
And the better you get at treating your cuts,
The deeper they get.
You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself
spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time
you go the pharmacy.
You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you
go to the counter to ring up your order.
Butterfly strips--
3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...
Betadine...
Antibiotic cream...
Medical tape...
Scar reducers...
You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will
just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you
need all these things.
And at the same time secretly hope someone will
notice--
Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same
supplies.
Someone who understands--
But of course that never happens.
Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your
money on.
Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--
Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets,
wristbands, boots...
The list goes on and on.
You will start looking at everyone in a different way.
Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.
Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you
don't feel so terribly alone.
You wont even think about it,
As your eyes scan their wrists arms.
Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.
But they are not.
You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and
alone.
You will start doing a lot of things alone.
You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one
sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.
You will always be cleaning up the blood.
Scrubbing your bathroom floor.
Wiping the blood off your keyboard.
You won't be able to make it through a day without
cutting.
Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere
breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your
wallet for emergencies.
When you get really desperate,
Anything will be a cutting tool...
Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a
pen.
Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad
enough you will find something.
Say goodbye to things you took for granted.
Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleeveless tops.
A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool
will become a far off memory for you.
Get ready to itch.
Because you will itch and itch.
So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin
disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you
destroy it carefully.
You will dream about cutting.
You will dream about being exposed.
It will haunt you day and night and take over your
life.
You will wish you never made that first cut because while
you absolutely hate cutting--
At the same time you love it and can not live
without
think about this before you
make that first/next
cut
301 faves · 20 comments · Sep 14, 2012 6:59pm
lolz62
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1 decade ago
woah. i almost just cried</3 this is amazing. i dont cut but i hope anyone whos thinking about it or has done it sees this. and im so glad i took the time to read this.
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1Dimaginettes
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1 decade ago
Thank you for posting this, I hope EVERYONE will take this to their heart's and never put that razor to their wrist.... I wish everyone could see this
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asianninjanerdsrule
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1 decade ago
This is without a doubt going up on my closet wall. Not my regular one because then my parents would search my arms and find my place i go to when i cant take life anymore. So thank you.
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drummerdiane
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1 decade ago
This is so inspirational and you just stopped me from making my first cut. Thank you so much.
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emilyanne2121
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1 decade ago
My friend and I both use to cut. One day he cut too deep. He went to the hospital and is still alive but he is in a mental hospital now. Im trying not to cut for him because I am all he has and he is all I have. If one of us killed ourselves then the other would have nothing.
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imjustonegirl
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1 decade ago
this is the most inspirational thing i have ever read. thank you
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ChaoticBeautyxo*
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1 decade ago
Thank you. I was seriously debating to the other day <3
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marchtoyourownbeat
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1 decade ago
I wish this had been up just a few weeks ago.
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LoveHungerGames
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1 decade ago
seriously, that is more inspirational than all the other quotes about things like this, it has affected me so much.You can not believe how true and amazing this was.i dont even know what to say, this is so touching to everybody that had cut.everybody that cuts does these things. including me. and you have made my day. put some sense into me. you are truly amazing. just, remember that.
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somebodyxsavexme
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1 decade ago
please put a trigger warning before your nest post like this? thank you so much<3
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Debz1D
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1 decade ago
You are amazing. :o
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Maddi_Moo
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1 decade ago
I cut but i didnt go deep. It was like scratches then it got all red. Im not gonna do it again. But will it go away? .
& Thank you. I Know i wont ever do it again . Thank you I love you now kay? :) Stay Amazing :)
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staying_true_to_myself
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1 decade ago
Too late ..
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LilyLunaPotter
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1 decade ago
Thank you.
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SparksFly34
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1 decade ago
....you just stopped me from doing my first cut.....i just want you to know that, i was thinking exactly what you said. Just a few tiny cuts, that's it...but i didn't do it
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sarahlikesbands*
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1 decade ago
thank you.
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wishfull_thinking
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1 decade ago
Reading this hurt. I knew it was all true, I just didn't want to hear it...
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blankwolf*
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1 decade ago
I am so glad I stopped.
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ErinRAWR
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1 decade ago
i know its terrible. i know. but i just want to feel it again. i went to school today with that cut on my wrist, turning my arm over every time i talked to someone because im scared. im scared of what'll happen to me, what they'll say about me, scared about my future which i know cutting will be involved in. I cannot live with this. i keep looking at that razor.
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perfectlyhappywithlife · 1 decade ago
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This Made Me Cry. I Wish I Never Started. It's True. All Of It. Adjusting To Your Mistake. Feeling So Ashamed. Pushing People Away, Lieing To Others, Ones You Love. But, I Can Get Through This. Thank You. For Posting This. It Pushes Me Even More To Stop.