Andjela * posted a quote
October 25, 2016 11:59am EDT
I wish I knew how to sit still and let life happen on its own. I always jump to conclusions and let my emotions attach to an idea that doesn't exist. I'm never neutral either. I'll put my cynical outlook on life onto any situation I'm going through, and when I decide that I should lighten up, my head is up in the clouds but my feet aren't on the ground. I sabotage myself, or I get my hopes up.
I slid my back down the bathroom wall and before I knew it, water dripped from my eyes down the bridge of my nose and onto my cheek. I had told myself I was fine that day, and pushed my demons back into their cages. Before I knew it, I was sobbing, muffling my quiet screams of anger, frustration, and sadness. I was a broken record.
itch me mad i have to close the closet or my brain will itch me mad i have to count the knives or i might do something bad i have to tap the table even on both hands i have to do it right or my brain will itch me mad itch me mad itch me mad
・ IT’S YOU. IT’S BEEN YOU FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. SINCE THE MOMENT WE STARTED TO TALK. IT’S YOU AT 2AM OR IT’S YOU AT 6PM. IT’S YOU WHEN I EAT, IT’S YOU WHEN I SLEEP, IT’S YOU WHEN I’M STUDYING. YOU ARE EVERYWHERE AND YOU ARE EVERYTHING. IT’S YOU. IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOU. YOU YOU YOU. ・