shescrazy19 posted a quote
January 17, 2017 12:56am EST
Maybe thats the problem; we both know it wasnt a lie. We both knew it was all as true as knowing the sun would come up in the morning. My love for you will forever be infinite. But its time for you to realize I'm no longer deserving of your love, and youre no longer deserving to be stuck on a love and a life that once was. No matter how amazing it was. Hate me if it'll make it easier on you. Hate me to make it so you can move on. To start over. Hate me to be you again.
Chrissys posted a quote
January 17, 2017 12:50am EST
Fragile glass Breathe into me like a dragons' breath Blow away my troubles and sins Life is the slow punishment, it'll end in death I turn to see the darkness and it's evil grin Broken and bruised as I have been The scars rise from beneath my fragile skin Set me free Let the wind sneak through the grass My soul whispers to the trees I grow stronger and I'm no longer freshly broken glass
Chrissys posted a quote
January 17, 2017 12:38am EST
My thoughts lately; 1/17/2017 12:38 AM It has been so hard to sleep lately. I keep staying up, thinking all night, about a lot of things. So many things I could have done. And things I wish I could have changed. And then, would my ending have ended out the same? That's the true question. If things were different, Who would have left? Who would come back? Who would have stayed? What could be different? Would my destiny still remain the same? So many questions cycling through my mind and thoughts just asking to escape. I feel like writing helps me cope. If you don't like me writing these long paragraphs, poems, and stories... Then why did you bother reading this far? Do you care about me enough to read this far or was it the fact that you thought I maybe have written some DRAMA laying between these sentences and commas? Who knows...? But Goodnight to those who read this far. As I'll be seeing you all tomorrow, but if I change slowly overtime... Think of it as cheese. It's not ready so quickly, but overtime it matures and develops perfectly.
When someone plants flowers in parts of your spirit that were dark closed, broken before they arrived, do not let them wither when they leave. Instead, love them for growing love them for living love them for letting the light back into your soul.
“ You are not broken. You can love and be loved, despite what may feel like the eternally brutal nature of the world. Even when you’re drowning and so far under, there is always time to reach for someone who will teach you how to breathe again. —Jessica Park ”
I wish she would stop telling me it will get better as if I'll wake up one day and all the missing, all the longing will have magically ceased to throb against my ribcage and churn knots in my stomach, storms behind my tear ducts. You get over losing a jaded, bitter adolescent a.sshole who didn't want or reciprocate your love (I've had to before, and it hurt nothing like this). You don't get over losing an innocent child who did nothing but love you and make your soul the happiest it had ever been with another. You don't get over having the purest, most unselfish relationship in your life abruptly taken from you when it could have and should have lasted much longer. This brand of heartache doesn't fade completely, and attempts to beat it into me that it will with something as inconsequential and arguably nonexistent as ‘time’ won't act as a dissolvent.
I want to say something mean. Hurtful. Something to make it so it'll be easier to move on. I hope you can find happiness in someone else. I hope you can find another soul mate. I hope you find someone to make you feel as amazing as you truely are. I want to rip it all off like a bandaid and maybe then it'll be so much easier, for both of us. All I know is I hope one day you can forgive me; even if its in the future I hope youre open to it. Just live your life to the fullest. Please.