one day i won't care this much.
one day it won't hurt this much.
i still wish so badly that you would understand me. that you would know me.
i wish you would check in with me genuinely.
there's so much that has happened to me.
i wish you would show me your love in the ways that i wanted you to.
i wish you told me how perfect i was already.
i wish you never compared me to others.
i wish you would just know me and accept me as i am.

i don't think you'll ever know to what extent you've hurt me.
i just feel like you should know me by now.
know me beyond the foods i like to eat.
i wish you knew my other preferences.
i wish you knew and accepted. but you just can't ever seem to accept me.
i didn't ask to be this way. i am just the way i am.

there are things i wish i could change so you could accept me but i just can't.
i don't know which parts were nature and which were nuture.
all i know is that you have never accepted all of me.
i don't even know how you see me.
must be some weird mixture of ungrateful and detached. you must think i've shut everything off completely just to spite you.
but i am not like that.
i wish you knew me.

i think if you knew me mum, then you would truly love me.