You were born for a reason, every little moment that you may not think is important but it is, your actions and your choices define who you are. You can’t change the past. change it by making your life matter.show people who you really are and ignore people that step on you. Be you and over come the negative things, it’s not worth making your life miserable by listening to other people. Never give up on something you think is impossible, it’s not you can do it . I hope you have a good day and make sure you smile 🙂
what helps me cope is realising all of life doesn't have to be enjoyed. life is also waiting. waiting is a part of life. i don't need to feel like i'm missing out on something just because it hasn't occured to me yet. or i don't need to beat myself up just because i dread things. most times i just can't wait for it to be over. waiting for the good parts. waiting to go home. waiting till i can eat my favourite snack. waiting until a dreadful presentation is over so my heart can finally feel at rest. waiting a while, then waiting some more. it doesn't have to be so depressiong. i think i've accepted it as a part of life. it is okay to not want to be in the right now. it's okay to long for the then, to hang on through waiting it out.
Today I'm only looking at you. Today I will make flowers bloom for you. Today I am only taking care of you. Today I am on your side. Today you can lean on me. Today I'll make all your dreams come true. Today I will only give you reasons to be happy. From today.
I honestly to this day don't and probably never will understand how somone can take a person who is beyond broken on ever level including emotionally and spiritually and pretend to love and use them knowing that there just going to break that person even more. all while the used one only wanted to love and care for that other person and is now once again giving up and falling back into the dark spiral still hanging onto the slightest bit of hope that one day they will find the right one who will end the suffering by showing the used one what true love really is, Until that day comes if it ever does ill be here in my shell waiting perhaps forever...
I've told myself so many times to stop making homes out of people because I'd only end up cold and alone when they leave. But i was so sure you'd stay.But you didnt and now I'm feeling homesick for a home that was never even mine to begin with.
"i will live like this just for today. Just for today I’ll live like this, so what? I can’t do anything. Starting from tomorrow I will do my cleaning. I’ll start working on the things I left behind. I’ll try to live, I’ll try to do that. Though it’s so pathetic, oh simply Only for today, i'll be like this." - 2pm : just for today
supposed to be a rest day, all i think of is d-day. i know i should be resting. rest when i'm dead rings in my head. supposed to be my rest day. keep pushing it away. gradually get more tired, but it's not the type of "Oh i need to stop and have a rest day" type of tired. Just a "you've kept it up this long and could keep going" type of tired. need to take one already but don't let myself. gotta do it already but im not ready. running out of rest days.
So I havent been on here in 5 years I like my profile said? Its wild, reading all the things I used to write that I can only barely remember. I think that was the point of me doing it back the, was to have something I could look back on and know my old self.. but the thing is that I thought I would be looking back as a better person and the truth is, I'm not. I thought that I would grow out of it but I didn't. Here I am, an adult reading things that everyone told me was just teenage angst and thinking to myself, how did I even get this far? Its no wonder Im strugling so hard now, I've been struggling with this my whole fckng life. I like this though, a whole other world I can escape to. I liked going back and reading old things from myself and I want to keep it. So from here on out I'm coming back to this. This is my secret escape, my secret way of getting everything out. If theres anyone out there that feels anything similar to anything I ever wrote, reach out and we can figure it out together. Much love
There's both pain and silence Raging war in my mind The pain is deep and cuts like a knife But the silence is so much worse In silence I feel nothing And I wonder if I'm still there At least the pain Reminds me that I am alive For now, the pain is enough And I will take it over the silence
i've thought about leaving a lot, but it's just superficial. not my true heart. when i feel a sudden pain, i wish it away. when i was given the option between pulling out my tooth or preserving it, i didn't think twice about coughing up almost half a grand. i say i don't care, that none of it matters...but still i'm safeguarding my life. it won't be over until there's nothing to protect. i don't need to look forward to anything. i just need to preserve what i have.