My memories are being reshuffled, all that's left is grey. Was it a good childhood, were they good friendships? Did I enjoy the life I lived? At the time, was I happy? Content at least? Surely I was happy at some point. I can't have lived my whole life without colour. But when I look back...I keep looking back. All that's left is grey. Small flashes that I thought I could forget by now, some are revisited as I try to rest. They resurface and before I can wish it away a tear has already sunken into my pillow. Makes me wonder if everyone lives like this. If my tears were always this salty. If I was just supposed to keep living like this. I keep telling myself one day at a time. One of these days it'll get better. Each day breaks me in a new way, but it just has to get better. God is fair. If it wasn't for that then I couldn't breathe let alone sigh a minute longer.
soon you'll be able to sleep well again. the sadness will be swept away in one blow. you'll eat proper meals from now on too. everything will fall at your feet. a new sun will embrace you, a new moon will watch over you. soon a spark will light up in your chest and you'll forget all the bad things. as i stroke your cheek and hold you close, i can't help but think how natural this is. of course even at this parting, comforting you is a must.
"Prove me wrong. Will I ever find someone who loves like me? Will I have to accept coldness? I'm not the type to be chipped away when met with coldness. I'm the type to only give in when I'm met with warmth. I think all my words through before saying them. I would never hurt him intentionally. Each word is careful. Prove me wrong. If you said it, how can you not mean it? I know when you're joking. Let's be honest here. You we're trying to hurt me. I'll frame it for you. Your ego was hurt and you wanted to hit back for a second. But the difference was I wasn't trying to hurt your ego or your feelings. You snapped back and used my weakness against me. I don't really want a hug right now. How can you give me the pain and the remedy all at once? I fantasized about this...being comforted by you after a long, trying day. You're only human. We're both only human. You can make mistakes. But please, let's both be more careful. I have no one else but you. If you hurt me I feel some type of way. Like I'm backed into a corner. Like I'm a little girl backed into a corner. You bring me back to that space. Small and with no where else to go. It's a bad feeling. Truly awful feeling."
A scientist cloned himself, but the clone turned out to be incredibly rude. Eventually, the scientist got sick of his clone and pushed him over a cliff. The next day he was arrested for making an obscene clone fall.