One month ago today I was admitted into a psychiatric treamtent center. Basically a mental hospital. I was being treated for my anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, and self-harm. Six days later I was discharged. It was really rough but I learned a lot from it. I'm still struggling but I'm fighting for my life. I realized I didn't want to end my life I just wanted the pain to end. I will recover and I will end my pain.
I accidentally scratched my arm on a sharp metal part of my shorts. It hurt but at the same time it felt so good. Thats why I then purposefully scratched my arm multiple times. It was a release. I promised myself I wouldn't self-harm. Well I just broke that promise.
June is Scoliosis Awarness Month and honestly sometimes I wish I didn't have it because it causes me so much pain that I will have for the rest of my life. But having Scoliosis has taught me that I have to push harder than everyone else just to be on their level so it makes me push even harder to make myself better. Scoliosis has made me the person I am today and I have no idea who I would be without it.