SparksFly34 posted a quote
February 23, 2014 7:52pm EST
Hello Witty. ... It's been a while. Longer than i thought really. Anyway, update on life if anyone cares to read it. ... Just past my ten months of being clean. I don't miss it anymore, it's crazy. I hate people, they leave you behind all of them time, but you just have to survive without them. ... I've made mistakes, but i can honestly say i don't think i regret them for a second. I missed all of you on here, and I'll try to be on more often. ... Keep Fighting lovelies.
I can't breathe. I feel like my chest is closing up. Emotional pain is so much worse than physical pain. Physical pain feels so much better. It takes everything else away. And that's what I need right now.
When I was little, I used to hate taking showers. They were boring and a waste of my little kid time. As I grew older I kind of liked them, I could sing and no one could hear me. Now I'm in high school, and I wish I could disappear, but my shower is my best friend. It's my place to think, to make my decisions. It's the place where I let the tears run down my face and the sobs of agony ring out. My shower is my safe haven.