some quick confessions.

confession 1-
There is not one single person I've told all of my secrets to. There's some stuff about me that I could just never tell — not on witty, not to a doctor, not even to my best friend.

confession 2 -
I hated my childhood, and my mother's to blame. I love her so much and I forgave her a while ago, but that's the truth.

Confession 3 -
I'm teriffied of doing anything with my life except what I want to (career wise), but I'm also terrified of being destitute, and I feel trapped because I feel like I have to choose between the two.

Confession 4 -
It p*sses me off so much when people assume that I’ve got a perfect life just because I don’t complain about my problems 24/7. Whatever I’ve been through, I dealt with, and just because I don’t think it’s any of your business or concern to feel sorry for me doesn’t mean you have the right to look down on me. I could sit here and tell you, but I don’t. Respect that, or f*ck off.

Confession 5 -
The thing that I am most scared of is going to hell.

Confession 6 -
I cry so f*cking easily.

Confession 7 -
When I was twelve or thirteen, I was at such a dark point in my life that I seriously almost purposefully walked under a bus. The trigger? I hadn’t finished the English essay that was due in that day. Looking back, it terrifies me that I could let my depression get so bad.

Confession 8 -
I’ve spent my whole life blaming my problems on my parents, and only now that my grandparents are dying do I regret it. I see my Dad crying because he’s already lost his mother and his father’s going the same way, and I see my mother spaced out because the most important woman in her life is fading away, and I regret it so f*cking much.

Confession 9 -
I spend so much of my time daydreaming. That's why I'm always spacing out.

Confession 10 -
I make myself cry by putting the characters I write in pain. Seriously. I’ll be sat there typing away while sobbing.

Confession 11 -
There are certain songs that I just can’t listen to because the memories they come with are too painful to relive.

Confession 12 -
I'm not insecure, and that's not a big deal.

confession 13 -
I've always either cared too much, or don't give a single f*ck. There is no in between with me.

Confession 14 -
It takes a lot to make me angry, but when I am, I actually go mental. I have a really really bad temper.

Confession 15 -
Sometimes, I wonder if I have too much perspective. Like, some kids won’t revise because they think the exams are ages away. I won’t revise because I realise that there is so much more to come in my life than exams, and it’s a false deadline. (It sucks because this mentality is going to be the reason I won’t get into uni omg)

Confession 16 -
I really don't care about most of the people here; so many users on this site either p*ss me off or make me roll my eyes. I don’t think it’s even normal, how annoyed I get... But some of you have so f*cking much to learn. And I don’t mean I know everything – just that I don’t know how you’ve gotten through life with such an ignorant attitude. (but some of you are magical tho)

Confession 17 -
I'm the 'rebel' child. Which is kind of hilarious.

Confession 18 -
I can’t do horror films. I just can’t. I have a really active imagination, and I’m always imaging myself in all these different scenarios – when I watch a horror or thriller, I’m creeped out for weeks because even though I know how ridiculous it is, I still subconsciously do it to scare myself. It’s like my brain’s fighting against me.

Confession 19 -
I've always been an outsider, and still don't feel like I 100% fit in anywhere or with anyone. I used to hate that, but now, I don't think I have a problem with that anymore.

Confession 20 -
Having followers kind of scares me... But it also makes me embarrassingly happy.<3

Confession 21 -
I'm really picky with my friendships, and I'm also ridiculously loyal with them. My circle of trust is small and made of steel. That's why I never make throwaway comments like 'i love you'. I think it's a Taurus thing.

Confession 22 -
Speaking of which, I'm really really really stubborn.

Confession 23 -
I used to be insecure about being the smartest in the class. Now, I'm proud of it. I don't boast or anything, but don't expect me to apologise for getting full marks in a test.

Confession 24 -
Some of my favourite users (off the top of my head) are (using original usernames for urls): realitywreckage, xoalicecullenxo, blackbutterflies, hogwartian, hakunaamatata, jaciecutie01, marissa123, jade672, kaytbugg, missanna, papaute, thatssomeee, and xoalicecullenxo again because that girl changed my life and she doesn't even know my name lksajf<3

Confession 25 -
I'll probably end up doing a whole series of confession quotes one day.

Confession 26 -
27 is my favourite number.

Confession 27 -
I've never fallen in love.

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