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SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping

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Birthday: August 12

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When I was a kid I used to think that pork chops and karate chops were the same thing I thought they were both pork chops and because my grandmother thought it was cute and because they were my favourite she let me keep doing it not really a big deal one day before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees I fell out of a tree and bruised the right side of my body I didn’t want to tell my grandmother about it because I was afraid I’d get in trouble for playing somewhere that I shouldn’t have been a few days later the gym teacher noticed the bruise and I got sent to the principal’s office from there I was sent to another small room with a really nice lady who asked me all kinds of questions about my life at home I saw no reason to lie as far as I was concerned life was pretty good I told her “whenever I’m sad my grandmother gives me karate chops” this led to a full scale investigation and I was removed from the house for three days until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises news of this silly little story quickly spread through the school and I earned my first nickname pork chop to this day I hate pork chops I’m not the only kid who grew up this way surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme about sticks and stones as if broken bones hurt more than the names we got called and we got called them all so we grew up believing no one would ever fall in love with us that we’d be lonely forever that we’d never meet someone to make us feel like the sun was something they built for us in their tool shed so broken heart strings bled the blues as we tried to empty ourselves so we would feel nothing don’t tell me that hurts less than a broken bone that an ingrown life is something surgeons can cut away that there’s no way for it to metastasize it does she was eight years old our first day of grade three when she got called ugly we both got moved to the back of the class so we would stop get bombarded by spit balls but the school halls were a battleground where we found ourselves outnumbered day after wretched day we used to stay inside for recess because outside was worse outside we’d have to rehearse running away or learn to stay still like statues giving no clues that we were there in grade five they taped a sign to her desk that read beware of dog to this day despite a loving husband she doesn’t think she’s beautiful because of a birthmark that takes up a little less than half of her face kids used to say she looks like a wrong answer that someone tried to erase but couldn’t quite get the job done and they’ll never understand that she’s raising two kids whose definition of beauty begins with the word mom because they see her heart before they see her skin that she’s only ever always been amazing he was a broken branch grafted onto a different family  theywerewrong.
adopted but not because his parents opted for a different destiny he was three when he became a mixed drink of one part left alone and two parts tragedy started therapy in 8th grade had a personality made up of tests and pills lived like the uphills were mountains and the downhills were cliffs four fifths suicidal a tidal wave of anti depressants and an adolescence of being called popper one part because of the pills and ninety nine parts because of the cruelty he tried to kill himself in grade ten when a kid who still had his mom and dad had the audacity to tell him “get over it” as if depression is something that can be remedied by any of the contents found in a first aid kit to this day he is a stick on TNT lit from both ends could describe to you in detail the way the sky bends in the moments before it’s about to fall and despite an army of friends who all call him an inspiration he remains a conversation piece between people who can’t understand sometimes becoming drug free has less to do with addiction and more to do with sanity we weren’t the only kids who grew up this way to this day kids are still being called names the classics were hey stupid hey spaz seems like each school has an arsenal of names getting updated every year and if a kid breaks in a school and no one around chooses to hear do they make a sound? are they just the background noise of a soundtrack stuck on repeat when people say things like kids can be cruel? every school was a big top circus tent and the pecking order went from acrobats to lion tamers from clowns to carnies all of these were miles ahead of who we were we were freaks lobster claw boys and bearded ladies oddities juggling depression and loneliness playing solitaire spin the bottle trying to kiss the wounded parts of ourselves and heal but at night while the others slept we kept walking the tightrope it was practice and yeah some of us fell but I want to tell them that all of this shit is just debris leftover when we finally decide to smash all the things we thought we used to be and if you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself get a better mirror look a little closer stare a little longer because there’s something inside you that made you keep trying despite everyone who told you to quit you built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself you signed it “they were wrong” because maybe you didn’t belong to a group or a click maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth to show and tell but never told because how can you hold your ground if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it you have to believe that they were wrong they have to be wrong why else would we still be here? we grew up learning to cheer on the underdog because we see ourselves in them we stem from a root planted in the belief that we are not what we were called we are not abandoned cars stalled out and sitting empty on a highway and if in some way we are don’t worry we only got out to walk and get gas we are graduating members from the class of fuck off we made it not the faded echoes of voices crying out names will never hurt me of course they did but our lives will only ever always continue to be a balancing act that has less to do with pain and more to do with beauty.  
 


 
  1. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
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    September 19, 2014 12:39pm EDT
    . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • .
    tell me something sweet
    to get me by.
    . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • . • .
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  2. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    July 3, 2014 11:30am EDT
    BE CAUTIOUS OF THIS WORLD.
    she has an appetite
    for boys and girls, and
    she's hungry for your soul.
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  3. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    May 11, 2014 2:16pm EDT
    They expect me to decide what to do with the rest of my life,
    but I still need permission to use the bathroom

  4. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    May 4, 2014 8:31pm EDT
    sometimes
    you need to
    let go
    of all the
    what if's
    and let yourself
    be happy.
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  5. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    May 3, 2014 7:18pm EDT
    i love you.
    PRESENT TENSE.

  6. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    May 2, 2014 6:32pm EDT
    Whatever you do,
    don't look back.
    The future's now,
    and the past
    is black.
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  7. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    May 2, 2014 6:07pm EDT
    We'll figure this out.
    Just wait and see.

  8. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 24, 2014 5:45pm EDT
    I fell in love with a boy
    who stayed up with me
    to give me advice
    even when there was
    no advice to be given.
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  9. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 23, 2014 5:40pm EDT
    Today,
    my teacher called my boyfriend
    "the kid with the brown hair
    and the nice smile"
    because he couldn't remember
    his name.

  10. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 20, 2014 11:05am EDT
    she wrote her story
    on her wrists
    for everyone to see,
    but all they did
    was look away
    from the pain
    that shouldn't be.

  11. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 19, 2014 8:27pm EDT
    If your heart is broken,
    make ♥ art
    with the pieces.

  12. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 17, 2014 5:14pm EDT
    Minutes passed.
    Then hours, then days.
    Weeks, months, years,
    and I'm still
    in love with you.

  13. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    April 16, 2014 10:58pm EDT
    I'm at war with myself,
    with my body and my mind,
    but mostly with my heart
    because it's still in love with you.
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  14. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    March 27, 2014 7:59pm EDT
    it's like being thrown
    into the ocean
    when you don't know
    how to swim.
    everyone around you
    is surviving,
    but you know that
    you can't win.

  15. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    March 21, 2014 7:54pm EDT
    do you mind?
    i miss you.
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  16. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    March 2, 2014 9:03pm EST
    there's nowhere i'd want to be
    WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE.
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  17. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    March 2, 2014 8:54pm EST
    if i could just live inside
    one of his hugs forever,
    i would.

  18. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    March 2, 2014 6:49pm EST
    because really,
    where would we be without any pain?
    maybe we would be happy,
    but could we ever know love?
    and not just the romantic type, but any love
    - for your family and friends, or even
    a sport or a book or art or anything -
    because to feel pain,
    you have to care, and if we never cared...
    then what's the point?
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  19. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    February 28, 2014 11:49am EST
    If I told you I loved you,
    would it make you
    want to stay?
    I'm sorry for the way
    I hurt you
    and making you
    walk away.
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  20. SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping SecretlyBrokenAndSilentlyHoping
    posted a quote
    February 5, 2014 7:43pm EST
    Sometimes
    people don't understand
    the promises they're making
    when they make them...
    but love is keeping the promise
    anyway.
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