You hurt me when I'm good to you. You lie to me even whenI tell you the truth. You leave me after I give you attention. You walk away when I ask you something after I answer your question. You ignore me when you have someone better to talk to. You only love me when I'm beneficial. You only want me when you're lonely. You don't care how my day was, but you'll tell me about yours. You don't love me the way I love you.
words are just air that flies into the wind, noticed once and never remembered again. So if you want to keep me, do not blow your loving air into my ear, instead use motions that cut through the wind, and prove that they are puzzle pieces that fit into one another. Eminem - Space Bound
coquetry* posted a quote
September 22, 2017 8:03pm EDT
When we are loved we are afraid love will vanish when we are alone we are afraid love will never return and when we speak we are afraid our words will not be heard not welcome but when we are silent we are still afraid.
coquetry* posted a quote
September 22, 2017 7:29pm EDT
“ I will be anything. I will be anything if it means I get to be with you. I will be the sun if it means you’ll love me. I will be the sky if it means you’ll touch me. And you’ll be the only one touching me. I will be orange when you wrap your hands around my throat. Blue when you can’t sleep enough. You are every color i will ever need. Put your hands on me and i will tremble and i will tremble all the stars with me. The entire sky will be burning with your name. Did i say it already? Do i get to repeat? Please. Let me say it again. Here, my hands, my shoulder. Would you like some coffee? I will be the mug and the coffee in it. Did you know your sighs are every prayer i ever needed? I like your knees. I like what your mouth does to my name. ‘Inali, poetry and other lovely things’ | Nayha Y.
We all have our own versions and levels of hell. Do you want to know what my hell is? Finding out 4 months into a marriage my husband is still not over his ex. It's having him come home on his lunch hour while I'm laying in pain, that he misses what he had with her. It was a simpler time. That he doesn't know how long our marriage is going to last so he checks up on that one specific ex to see if he would still have a shot. Hell is loving someone so much, trusting them with your entire life, soul, basically everything you have to offer, just to have them break you in 0.5 seconds. That is hell.
To my favorite person in the world, I know things are over, and I know that means I don't get to create new memories with you. I know I have told you not to talk to me again, but everyday I talk to you, sometimes in whispers, sometimes in sobs, but everyday I do. I know a lot of things now and one of them is how incredibly I miss you, but how that alone is not a great enough incentive to get us to talk again anymore. I know what we had was special and invaluable, and I know it because I know a lot of people, a hell of a lot of them, and still nothing makes up for the fact that we won't get to stroll around aimlessly together anymore. I know I am sad, I can feel it everyday as I lay my head down to sleep, and I know why I am so, but I also know that I have tried with all my heart for the both of us and it went in vain. I know what would feel good and what is right to do, and it aches me that this time they are two completely different things. I know I had you. I know I lost you.I know things are sh|tty. I know it's aready been a while. I know I should've been feeling better. BUT I AM NOT.And that's okay, or at least that's what they say. The one thing I DON'T know is whether this will end up being just a break or a good-luck-in-another-lifetime kind of thing. And it's scary how I DON'T know which of them would be a better option. I DON'T know why I'm writing this as well, but I guess if I ever figure out why I still talk to you in my head everyday, I'll figure out the rest of this. LOVE, always.
Following her foot steps as in with katie and adam? I'm surprised she remembered I honestly probably wouldn't of. I haven't seen any of that stuff in a while. Honestly didn't even remember your snapchat name had to sync my contacts. I miss that woman though. She reminds me so much of my nanny. My heart would break everytime I thought if we waited too long to get maried she might miss it. Or she wouldn't see our baby. 5:42
shescrazy19 posted a quote
September 19, 2017 8:37pm EDT
I have all those same thoughts, way too often. Brought Ethan up to see gma dale ; she said that i was following my moms footsteps with all of this. Ive been wearing that blue turtle necklace we got together. She noticed it right away and asked isnt that what you got with her? So that was a nice slap to the face. (5:37 on tues)