idk. i guess to be honest i dont see what everyone else tells me they see, i see gross, i hate the way i look, and im not just complaining, i actually try i watch my calorie intake, ive starved, ive purged, ive dieted, ive worked out i stay at it and nothing works, i just want to be beaautiful :c
i know that you dont love me but can we pretend just for tonight, hold me while i cry and ill snuggle up next to you, in the morning you can leave and forget me again but please, can we be perfect just for tonight
i pray that it never gets so bad to the point where you think the only way left is to leave. i pray that it never gets so bad to the point where you think the only way left to feel is to drag that razor across your skin. i pray that you find within you the strength to love yourself, because at the end of the day you dont have much else. i pray that you understand you can make the change you need. and i promise there is at least one person out there that loves you dearly, and if you cant find anyone, then that someone is me. i love you, every imperfection and flaw, they could never deteriorate that love because you are worth it, you are enough, and i love you, please keep your head up.
so yes after you broke me then walked away, i picked up all my pieces, all by myself and i was able to live again but i cant quite figure out how im supposed to put the pieces together to be able to love again