i am so tired of having to play the positive, stable, nothing's-ever-wrong friend when i'm angry and in pain all the fxcking time
i. yeah, i know you're gay. it's fine, for god's sake.
ii. no, actually, i did self-harm, and while we're on the subject, i tried to kiII myself too. yeah, i didn't tell you and lied straight to your face.
iii. i know apathy is terrible but i'm so tired of being too scared of the pain to let myself really care about anything again
vi. sometimes i genuinely want to leave you behind and cut all ties when we graduate. yeah, we're supposed to be best friends. yeah.
v. i wish... i had never let you in.