somehow i randomly remembered this website and came on here to read some of the old stuff i had posted, and boy oh boy 😅 this was basically my online diary 😂 happy to report that I'm happily married to my best friend (going on 3 years now) and we have 2 beautiful babies & i can't wait to have more with this wonderful man ❤ my childhood (bc that's really what it is, i was 13, i was a kid) love is engaged to his girlfriend of what seems forever (plot twist, she's the one he cheated on me with) but no hard feelings bc homeboy had a glow down and i got my prince charming and my beautiful babies ❤❤❤
Arab cananaites were the first people who lived in Palestine.They built it and named it's cities.Some of these names:oursalem(Jerusalem today),beitlekhem(Bethlehem),yafa"means the beautiful one" for Jaffa.We notice that almost palestinian cities names now came from it's origin.
Dudu* posted a quote
February 18, 2021 11:57am UTC
you are just amazing. i hope you live a great life. i think you're just the best. thank you. You are so kind. i appreciated it a lot. an angel with words of support and advice. God sent you to me that day. I am so beyond thankful. thank you, thank you, thank you. once more, thank you.
Well here I am almost 5 years later and I never really expected much to change but its like practically everything did, and I still feel the way I did then but there is a light and there is a dark and sometimes the space of light you see is so little but you really hold out for that first taste of air and pray...I found my little lights and some big ones too and also some darker times and lots of little cracks where I hadnt noticed before..heres to hoping I come back in another 5 years and the world has changed too. Dear 16, Hold on you learn light and darkness Dear 26 me...were gunna do this Signed 21
introverts. so take me there: to the end of this conversation. it starts in the same way, under the same circumstances. i'm lonely, you're lonely. we don't check in until it's all a little too much. Finally caving in as we burst at the seams. "How are you? i miss you." always precedes the trail of renewed confessions. nothing's changed, we're both still the same. you got a new comforter and i haven't seen those boxers before. still wrapped around your finger. still know you like the back of my hand. when we run out of things to say time begins to flow differently. the world mutes itself so i can hear your breathing. we're just existing in the same space and it's grand. we won't need to hear from eachother for another few weeks. low maintenance, dependable and all for me. you're my favourite human interaction.
what a shame. your house isn't my home, this morning isn't a good one. when i see you...i don't want to see you. nothing i did was ever enough, now this feeling goes both ways. i'm counting down the days till i can leave this place. i'm not satisfied with the way you raised me. it's immature in a way, i'm immature in a way. i blame you and keep blaming you. being the quiet child was good back then, but now i need to entertain you with conversation. everything you liked about me, i hate it now. it makes life so hard for me and i hate it all now. some mornings i wave a white flag, when i miss having parents i can laugh with. other mornings, after i've spent the night crying i can't bring myself to look you. you won't know, cause you don't listen. cause you not being the victim is something you can't fathom.
i just wanted to crawl into a tiny hole pull the covers over my head and rest my eyes for a while. to give my racing mind permission to crash into a cozy dream. a dream where all of this would stop being too much for me. a breeze became a stong blow and the strong blow became a hurricane. rain drops that showered down intermittently now greet me as downpour. learned habits and mirrorred expressions became a wall between me and everyone i loved. i just wanted to put this all down for a while. not put it in someone else's hands or rest it on someone else's shoulders. just put it on the ground, let it gather dust and revisit it when i'm stronger.
MaxieTofu posted a quote
October 29, 2020 7:25pm UTC
▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌ ♡ Why am I still making time for you? Still going out of my way to do things specifically for you to notice? Am I subconciously doing things in hopes of spending more time with you? Why am I doing this to myself. ♡ ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌