late
night
thoughts.
i don't think
i've ever
truly
loved him
i can't shake
this thought that
he is just
using me
when he doesn't text
me i get anxious
and i hate
that
a day never goes by
without him reaching
out to me.
i think i
have attachment
issues for real
i test him
in a way by keeping score
he's always
the first to
reach out, that
makes the anxiety disappear
in person he's
always kind
and sweet
i miss him when
we're apart and i
feel him get jealous when
i'm paying
other guys
attention
something
is going on but i
keep pretending it's
not
i keep telling
myself i
can't love
someone if i can't
accept all of
them
