WE loved like Hera and Zeus, tricking each other into thinking the other would better us, CURE US, and that ours was a love which would last so long that we could take each other, our bodies and souls for Granted. An endless chasm had opened between us before we realised we had convinced each other we our blood ran immortal ichor and there wasn't a drop of it between us. THIS IS WHAT A BORROWED FOREVER LOOKS LIKE; THE PERSON you love the most falling into a chasm you both created and you are too far away to save them. In the end there were no Gods to save us. WE HAD KILLED THEM ALL. —Nikita Gill, "Gods and Mortals"
Dudu* posted a quote
September 14, 2017 9:03am EDT
My younger sister is my best friend, but she doesn't know. She knows the most about me, I really like taking with her about whatever comes to mind. I can be myself completely. We fight a lot too about petty stuff, but it's never serious. She is my best friend. I won't tell her, because she would worry about me. "What about [insert friends name here]?" Would be the first thing she says back. And I don't want her to worry. She is a bit younger than me, I feel like I still have this proper image to uphold when I'm with her. It would hurt my pride if she knew how I really felt most of the time. She is my closest friend. Maybe when we're older I can tell her. Maybe when I'm older I will have made new friends. Maybe when my depression goes away. Who knows.
Loving someone with depression is hard. No matter the day you're having you must smile and wear your brave face because all it takes is one moment of weakness to set them back. Forget about birthday's, anniversaries, or celebrations because something bigger, darker is filling their soul. Kind gestures go unnoticed because they are already carrying the world. And now it's your job to take hold of that world and carry it like it's nothing and you'll shove every ounce of emotion, good and bad, that you bare so deep into your soul, it will only come out through silent tears in the lonliest kind of darkness. You'll tiptoe on eggshells. And when you slip, because you will, the horrible names won't stop. And when that fist makes the insufferable connection you'll crumble. But if a single tear falls or yelp cries out in desperation it will set it all back. So you must take a deep breath and wear your bravest face.
Sometimes, I think of the Moon and Sun as lovers who rarely meet. . . Always chase and almost always miss one another. But once in a while, they do catch up. . . and they kiss and the world stares in awe of their eclipse.
30 Day Song Challenge. 1. A Song you can listen to on repeat. 2. A Song from one of your fave albums. 3. A Song from your childhood. 4. A Song that makes you feel strong. 5. A Song that makes you sad. 6.A Song that cheers you up. 7. A Song that reminds you of your friends. 8. A Song that reminds you of an ex or crush. 9. A Song that reminds you of you. 10. A Song that brings back bad memories. 11. A Song that brings back good memories. 12. A Song that grew on you. 13. A Song from a musical 14. A Song with a great music video. 15. A Song that's better as a cover 16. A Song that's better acoustic. 17. A Song with great lyrics. 18. A Song for the Summer. 19. A Song for heartache. 20. A song for car rides. 21. A Song for the rain. 22. A Song for dancing. 23. A Song for making out. 24. A Song for a lover. 25. A Song from before you were born. 26. A Song from a band that broke up. 27. A Song you've seen live. 28. A Song you want to see live. 29. A Song by a band you don't usually like. 30. A Song you recommend. Day 22: A Song for Dancing: A little known fact about me is that I love to dance. Like I used to get DOWN at middle school dances. Those middle school dances would've been incomplete without Ke$ha, Black Eyed Peas, LMFAO, etc. I'm also a sucker for pre-chorographed songs like The Cha-Cha Slide, or Cupid Shuffle. When I don't feel like coming out of my emo cave I'll listen to all of Panic!'s A Fever You Can't Sweat Out, OR Paramore's After Laughter. Fall Out Boy's Dance, Dance, My Chemical Romance's Planetary (GO!), All Time Low's I Feel like Dancin'/ A Party Song (Walk of Shame), and Marianas Trench's B-Team.
Dudu* posted a quote
September 10, 2017 8:45am EDT
It kinda sucks you know. I've known for a while we're not as close as the others, that our friendship was way too superficial. But aren't you being too much? You stay up till it hits exactly midnight to send the others a paragraph of how much they mean to you on their birthday. I wish I could trick myself into thinking that I didn't need one of those texts from you...but when I didn't wake up to anything, it's embarrassing to admit, but I was surprised. Weren't you being too much? You invited me along to lunches as you gifted them presents, I told myself I didn't want anything from you, but when you turned up empty handed, it's pathetic, but I was surprised. Have you given up on me? Finally realised there's better out there? Can you finally let go of me now? I've never liked surprises. I've always wanted to though.