Is there anyone who can see my tears, is there anyone who can feel what i feel, is there anyone who can heal this pain, is there anyone who can love me...if there is someone than just please hold me, just hug me tightly that you will not leave me..I need someone.
I was so mad today. I went to the backyard and teared up for a bit. It was so embarrassing. I didn't realise but I kept picking away at my skin, when I was done a small patch had turned blood red. I only realised when dad asked if I fells on rocks. I didn't notice I did that to myself, I was so distracted that I hurt myself. My knee is throbbing. It's so scary. Never again. This is a form of self sabotage I won't fall victim to and make a habit out of. I was on autopilot. I'm scared of myself atm. It's not a good feeling. My knee hurts and it was unconsciously intentional.
Sometimes, I think of the Moon and Sun as lovers who rarely meet. . . Always chase and almost always miss one another. But once in a while, they do catch up. . . and they kiss and the world stares in awe of their eclipse.
You hurt me when I'm good to you. You lie to me even whenI tell you the truth. You leave me after I give you attention. You walk away when I ask you something after I answer your question. You ignore me when you have someone better to talk to. You only love me when I'm beneficial. You only want me when you're lonely. You don't care how my day was, but you'll tell me about yours. You don't love me the way I love you.
Title: I'm Not Black. . . When people see me they see black. When people meet me They hear white. What's up with that? I'll tell you what: The color of my skin The pigment in my tone The melanin I'm in Is black. The way I talk The way I act The way I walk And my character someone how Is white. People say, People have the nerve to say to my face "you're not black." And what do I say back? I laugh and say, "you're right, I'm white Because I speak clearly, don't act hood and ain't out here callin' people my n*ggas." But what does that matter? Why is black an adjective of my lack of character? Why is white a adjective of my total character? It's freckin’ annoying. It's ignorant. And I'm more than that.