And finally I realized just how much I had lost.
I had let myself be consumed by my misery until I was certain I
was more beautiful for it and I suffered in love with the idea of
loving you, when you were so much better off without me. I gave
up an entire life and my entire youth because of this pain that I
had held onto and refused to let go of. I ruined my life and
I've never known love and this was the cost of all I have
done.
