a message to all the people

i went to middle school with

or more specifically, (you know who you are) the ones who bullied me. or yeah go head with your pi.ss a.ss invalid speech thinking that it "wasn't bullying" but i'm not going to get into that right now. we're going into 10th grade now, and i can honestly say i've changed a lot since the day of 8th grade promotion, walking out of the doors of the middle school with the feeling of relief. but, there's a lot of things that hasn't changed. yes, i'm still shy, insecure, have no friends loser etc. whatever the f;uck you thought of me you name it yes i still am thank you. i don't think any more highly of myself than i did that year. honestly all i wanted to do was get away from you. because i can completely and sincerely say that you've ruined my life. hell, your bs still haunts me to this day. all the sh;t you'd say at school about me, about my friends; how you'd exclude me, put me down, make me feel worthless. it might have seemed like nothing to you, but all you did was create a very long list for reasons to hate myself. i am not kidding i felt like i was a southern black girl in the 1950's constantly harrassed by a bunch of ra.cist white people but instead by just anyone and for being shy. i cried almost every night before school and felt nauseous every day before i'd leave the house and go because i'd wonder if that'd be the day that i'd just break down and cry during the middle of class. i didn't know how much more i could take without ending it all so i tried to get away as far as possible without asking my parents to sell the house and move out of town. and it's kind of working, i'm still not okay but i am better. not many people like me but it is better than being treated like trash every single day. so please just know i am still trying to recover from all the pain you've put me through. don't interrupt that process by reminding me of how i was back in middle school with you because thank you captain obvious i am already 100% aware. if you have sh;t to say about then, then please don't say anything at all; learn how to put the past behind you. you'd have no idea how happy i'd be if i could just move out of this town all together, unfortunately i can't. but i am still proud of myself. i am proud of myself for making it through 8th grade. i am proud of myself for resisting those terribly constant urges to press a blade against my skin. i am 100% serious i did not think i would have a 14th birthday, i am proud of myself for not sending myself to the hospital for a failed suicide attempt. f.u.ck sh.i.tty people, life is worth it. so guys, i hope you know that what you've done to me was bullying, and the effects will probably last a lifetime. and if you think this is funny or silly, and if you're just going to be a fu.cka.ss and blame it on me, you are truly disgusting and i do not understand how you live with yourself every day. so this is what the life was like for one of the "mutes" if you were ever wondering. i hope you realize now that what you've done (and are doing) is wrong.

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a message to all the people i went to middle school with or

45 faves · 18 comments · Aug 15, 2013 2:15am

josiewdog123 · 1 decade ago
Holy jesus are you me? And you're wicked awesome don't let them get to you any more <3
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gab* · 1 decade ago
aw thank you so much c: i really appreciate it
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josiewdog123 · 1 decade ago
No problem you have a right to be proud of yourself
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happiest* · 1 decade ago
why isn't this a top quote?
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poodlelomein35 · 1 decade ago
I feel ya girl :( middle school sucked for me. I have a speech disorder and I was always excluded. I no longer keep in touch with those people, with the exception of two that go to my youth group. But even then, we still aren't close. The only thing you can do is remind yourself that you are beautiful, you are perfect the way you are, and to never let their comments get to you :)
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gab* · 1 decade ago
aww thanks so much!! (:
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prettyface · 1 decade ago
Ugh, middle schoolers are some of the worst people. They all act pathetic in an attempt to act the way they think Highschool is like, and they're way off.
I am so glad you made it through, you are so much better than those pretentious slime.
I want you to please remember that it was not you, it was them and middle school itself. I don't know whats up with middle-schoolers but they are just horrible for whatever reason.
Keep your chin up and always remember how wonderful you really are.
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gab* · 1 decade ago
hahaha thanks c:
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skf97 · 1 decade ago
I know exactly how you feel. School is torture for me, but I'm glad you're getting away. I deal with it by making friends out of school, they are so much better and less judgmental than anyone. I have friends that live far away and a couple towns over and they are all lifelong friend material, unlike any of the people I became friends with at school. Sure the words still hurt, but now I know that I have a support system and good people to back me up. Just be you outside school and attract people that way, it's so much easier than trying to make friends with narrow-minded cliques.

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gab* · 1 decade ago
that's a good idea. thanks so much (:
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♪♫Losτ Sταrs♫♪* · 1 decade ago
I don't know who you are, but from what I can tell you seem like a pretty nice girl.

Don't let the words of other people bring you down. Never even think twice about what someone says to you that isn't nice. They're just trying to get to you. Don't let them. I know it's hard, I really do. But just take pride in knowing that you're better than any of those jerks who have ever put you down in the past. Know that you're a good person and they aren't good at all. It doesn't really matter what anyone says about you, really. Because if they aren't people you care about and talk to regularly, their opinions of you don't count. Not at all. Only you can determine your own worth.

I'm proud of you for still being here through everything you've been through. Just promise me you'll keep holding on, because as cliche as it sounds, it really does get better. It may not happen as soon as you'd like, but things can't stay bad forever.

If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here.

P.S. I think you're really pretty. :)
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gab* · 1 decade ago
thank you so much!!! (:
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KeepFighting · 1 decade ago
I am so proud of you Gabi, this took alot of guts. One day you'll look back at all the people that bullied you and they'll look up saying, "wow, I never thought she'd turn out to be that way." and you're gunna be happily living your life when all the guilt comes back to them and they're gunna feel like idiots for treating you the way that they did. Stay Strong and Keep Fighting my love. I'm so glad you didn't give up, you can do this.<3 x
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gab* · 1 decade ago
thank you taylar (:
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KeepFighting · 1 decade ago
of course, you don't needa thank you me though. you deserve the best girlie.:)
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x0x_jay_x0x · 1 decade ago
Hey, I'm Janet. Listen.
Surviving high school is rough, but I promise you'll get through it. and hey. if you ever need to talk to anyone i'm here, but most importantly:
These people that make you feel like crap and judge, are worthless. You'll never see basically ANY of them ever again, unless you choose to.But you're wrong about one thing. I can tell by this quote you're amazing. and you're so pretty! Keep your head up, you always have a friend here! :)
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gab* · 1 decade ago
thank you so much you've literally just made my day i needed that (:
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x0x_jay_x0x · 1 decade ago
:) and making your day made mine. You're welcome anytime :)
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