Stop throwing yourself a pity party and build new bridges.
My name's Savannah and I can only deal with so much negativity. I swear I'm pretty nice and I
talk in caps way more than i should.
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Instead of waiting for people to compliment me, I compliment myself. Instead of waiting for someone to ask if I'm okay, I recognize my problems and start fixing them. Instead of waiting for somebody to comfort me, I tell myself that things are going to be okay. Instead of waiting to be rescued, I start looking for an escape. You cant rely on others for everything. Stop acting helpless AND RECOGNIZE HOW POWERFUL YOU ARE. STOP WAITING AROUND AND ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING. You are powerful. You are strong. You can do whatever you put your mind to. Relying on others is not bad. But when that's all you know how to do, it makes a pretty sucky life.
S The truth is: I contradict myself. All. The. Time. And I confuse myself on what I think and what I feel and somedays I just get so frustrated because I dont understand who I am or what my personality is like. But then I remember: that's what makes me, ME, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Do you ever feel like a cheap knockoff? Because sometimes I do. I'll just see a really beautiful girl and then I'll get a glimpse of myself in a mirror or my reflection in the window and BAM! Realization hits that I look like a poorly made bootleg. They'll be Sailor Moon and I'll be the knock off called 'Planet Girl'
Do you know the worst thing about growing up? It's that as you grow, your friends grow too. And as your friends grow up, them seem to out grow your friendship. And the thing is You try to keep holding on, maybe by walking a bit faster in the hallways to catch up or maybe by sitting by them and attempting to start a conversation But... they just ignore the attempts. Time continues on and later you'll pass them in the hall, not even a smile or a nod given. And it just hurts. It hurts really bad.
My brother just told his friend "You aren't the brightest cookie in the box." and I'm just sitting over here, with a stunned look on my face, trying to decide whether to: A.) laugh at the irony or B.) facepalm at the stupidity
I dont know about you guys, but I have this thing where I always wonder what it must look like for people to watch a show originally created in English but switched over to their language. Like Frozen. It's in english and you can actually see the characters mimic the words with their mouths. Now if it was in Spanish then wouldn't it look kinda weird? Thats always the first thing that pops up in my head when I see one.
So my moms upstairs fixing something in my grandmas bathroom and she shots to us "Okay! I need one more screw!" and my grandma goes "So do I." NO. JUST... UGGGH I DIDN'T NEED TO HEAR THAT. Excuse me while I go bang my head against a highly poisonous creature.
I spent a whole freaking 5 minutes trying to unhighlight a quote I found. The whole 5 minutes was full of quiet cursings and glaring. Turns out, the quote was automatically highlighted. I'm so freaking special.
I just noticed that I'm really posessive of my friends. Like if some other person starts talking to them and I see them I'm just like "I DONT REMEMBER GIVING YOU PERMISSION TO TALK TO THEM. NO. GO AWAY. BACK THE F/CK UP AND WALK AWAY BEFORE I GO ALL JURASSIC PARK ON YOUR HOMELY LOOKING SELF!" on the inside. But on the outside I'm just like "Oh... Hey. Um, I'm gonna go over there. Sorry.."
Do you ever just want to strangle those kids at school? Because I do. I let you BORROW that pen or pencil. (Yeah, I put borrow in bold, italics, and underlined it. Sh/t just got real.) Now, I don't know about you but my definition of borrow is use with my permission for a period of time and then give back. You don't keep it you fraking kleptomaniac!
Oh my god there are so many freaking awesome artists in my art club and I'm like "Oh fruck. Well there goes my self-esteem." Because most of the kids in my art class are horrible at drawing and I'm just like "HA HA Mother Fruckers! I'm better than you guys and I'm not even trying! Suckers!!! Ha!" And oh my gosh there's is so much professionalism... Some one kill me right now. I don't feel like being mocked inside of there freaking head. Yeah, I know they're mocking me with my un-experienced-ness. Well you know what, it's not my fault so maybe I'll just go cocoon in my room or go look at other peoples drawings and make myself feel better by comparing theres to mine and wow I sound conceited but whatever. Don't act like it doesn't make you feel better that someone does somthing horrible that you're awesome at. You just get this awesome feeling of pride and wanna rub it in their face but you're nice and just pretend to be modest while brushing off their compliments but on the inside your ego is practically 'bout to pop and you caught me. I'm just trying to even this out into a pyramid. Oops well there's you explanations for why this is long. Just a few more lines. I'd be really surprised if you were still reading this but congratulations if you are. I don't know why but whatevers... And done.
Oh you think I spend way to much time on the computer? Guurlllll, stfu or gtfo cuz I'm totes off the computer most of my life like IDEK why you thought that. You totes sh- oh BRB, Ricky just tweeted something. What do you mean I don't have any friends and I'm not social enough? I beg to differ. I can have Kittalia, Melon Lord, and Inkquill332, and the rest of my followers vouch for me.