Hi! My names Nicole!
I'm 14 years old!
I'm going into ninth grade, yay.
I play Lacrosse and Cheerleading
I'm a Mahomie the Mahomie
I'm madly in love with Austin Mahone.
If you don't know who that is, leave. Just, goodbye. Don't even bother following me.
Well I don't really have many friends cause i'm really annoying and hate people.
I'd love it if someone would talk to me.
Have a nice day!
iluvyou143 posted a quote
November 4, 2013 6:54am UTC
Why don't we all just stop loving the person who doesn't love us back? Why don't we all stop caring about people who don't car about us? Why don't we all stop worrying about what other people think? We spend our whole lives being upset about things we can never change. If we stop caring, then maybe we'll stop being sad.
iluvyou143 posted a quote
October 20, 2013 11:16am UTC
you cannot tell a sad girl that they are pretty unless you are prepared to hold them as they sob hysterically at 3 am. you are not allowed to tell sad girls they are perfect if you have never seen the wounds that litter their bodies and represent each battle lost in a war with themselves and I'm begging you, please do not tell sad girls that you are in love with them unless you truly and entirely are
Lost and Insecure Chapter 13 I didn’t know what to say. The only thing that felt right was that I would go; so I said it. “Really?” Sebastian asked with the biggest smile on his face. “Yes. But I have to ask my parents.” I answered. “Already did. They said it was fine.” He answered. “You know you’re perfect?” “I’ve heard.” He pulled me at my waist and kissed me, but I couldn’t stop smiling. His little sister and brother ran in smiling and jumping around. “Did she say yes? Did she say yes?” they both asked excitedly. “Yes.” He said and they both started screaming and jumping around. “I’m really happy you’re coming with us!” Isabella said while hugging me. “I’m happy I am too.” I answered, hugging her back. Sebastian drove me home and I ran upstairs and started to pack. I was so excited but very surprised that my parents said I could go. I was searching through my closet for cute dresses and then my mom walked in. “You don’t have to just wear dresses if you don’t want to.” She said. “Really? So I can wear whatever I want?” “Yes. I want you to be comfortable.” “Thank you, thank you, thank you!” I said giving her a big hug. “Do you have anything other than dresses though?” “Not really.” “We can go shopping if you want.” “You know you’re the best mom ever?” “I’ve heard,” She giggled, “I’ll go get my stuff ready. We’ll leave in ten minutes.” “Ok, thanks mom! I love you!” I yelled as she walked out of my room and down the hall to hers. I grabbed my wristlet and looked in the mirror one last time. I walked down stairs and Spencer and Logan were sitting on the couch. I tried to ignore them because I didn’t want them to ask where I was going because I knew my mom would tell them about Disney. I didn’t mind telling Spencer but I didn’t want Logan to know. I feel like if I told Logan he would tell Jason and that would just make everything worse. Luckily mom didn’t say anything and we got out of the house before they asked where we were going. We got to the mall and my mom brought me to all the best stores. She bought me cute tank tops, shorts, bathing suits, and shoes. After I stepped back into reality I was really confused. It made no sense that she would let me go with Sebastian and even less sense that she would buy me all these clothes. She bought me clothes that she wouldn’t even let me look at last week. “So why did you suddenly decide to become so cool?” I asked her. “What do you mean?” She asked giggling. “Last week you would not have let me go out of the state with my boyfriend and you definitely wouldn’t let me buy all these clothes.” “Well I guess I should probably tell you now.” My mom said, sitting down on a chair in the dressing room. “Oh god.” “I said you could go with Sebastian because Spencer is going to Disney with Logan and his family so I figured she could keep an eye out for you.” “So you don’t trust me to go on my own?” “It’s not that I don’t trust you, I don’t trust other people.” “Like his parents?” “No his parents are good people.” “So it’s him you don’t trust?” “Bailey he is one of those super jocks. You never know.” “I can’t believe you. If you really trusted me you would trust him because I trust him.” “I’m sorry honey but I don’t really know him.” “Whatever mom.” I said and walked out of the dressing room. outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/chapter_13/set?id=81850721
Lost and Insecure Chapter 12 I continued to think about what my purpose in life was. I also wondered where life would take me in the future, and who would come with me. I wondered if I would spend the rest of my life with Sebastian or someone else. I loved Sebastian now, but what if something changed. I guess I would get over it, but I hate heart break. Well I guess it’s just something everyone has to deal with in life. I rolled out of my bed as my alarm went off. I slipped on a cute dress, as always, and then looked in the mirror. I then started to do my makeup, followed by my hair. It’s the same thing every day but it’s still fun to me. I grabbed my purse and then walked downstairs. My mother had my breakfast ready on the counter so I sat down and started to eat. “How’s Sebastian?” she asked, trying to make conversation. “He’s good” I answered. “Is he really good, or are you just saying the first answer that comes to your mind?” “No, he’s really good mom.” “Ok, and are you guys good?” she asked. “Yes mom. We’re good.” I said as spencer walked down the stairs. “Ready?” she asked. “Yes.” I answered and followed her out to her car. “She asked me that kind of thing too, when Logan and I started dating.” Spencer assured me. “When did she stop?” I asked “Yesterday,” she said jokingly, “don’t worry about it. She just wants you to be safe.” “Yeah I understand.” “So how are you two, honestly?” “We’re good. I’m just always worried that something is gonna go wrong.” “It probably will, but if you guys are meant to be together everything will be fine in the end.” “Thanks Spencer.” We pulled into the school parking lot and Logan was waiting for spencer were he usually did. I walked in with them till I got to my locker. Where Sebastian was standing there waiting for me. I walked up to him and gave him a kiss. After I put the books I didn’t need in my locker Sebastian took the books I was still holding in one hand and held my hand with the other. I loved the way he did things without me asking him to; that showed me that I was always on his mind. As we walked to my classroom we talked about pointless things and I enjoyed that. I liked talking to him about things that we wouldn’t remember in ten minutes. After first period I decided to walk to Sebastian’s locker. As I was walking there I passed by Jason’s locker and he was standing there putting books into it. I turned and looked the other way, hoping he wouldn’t notice me. I started to walk faster, just in case, and then I reached Sebastian’s locker. I reached up on my tippy toes and put my hands in from of his eyes. He turned around and kissed me, just like they did in the movies. “So what would you do if that was someone else?” I asked with a smile on my face. “I’d tell them that they didn’t kiss as good as my girlfriend.” He said, and I just had to kiss him for that. When I pulled away I saw people staring and I got started to feel weird. I grabbed Sebastian’s hand and started walking down the hall. When we reached my classroom he turned to me and kissed me. When he pulled away he asked “Come home with me? We have to talk.” My heart instantly dropped. I hoped it wouldn’t be anything bad, but I couldn’t stop thinking it was. “Yeah sure.” I answered, trying to act like I wasn’t panicking inside. “Ok. See you later.” He said and kissed me again. All day I kept wondering what he wanted to talk about but when the moment finally came, I didn’t want to find out. He walked me up to his room and I sat down on his bed. My heart was beating and my hands started to get sweaty. He really needed to tell me before I exploded. Sebastian sat down next to me and grabbed my hand, and he was shaking too. “Bailey, I’m going to Disney land with my family and my parents said I could invite you.” outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/not_used/set?id=71513428
iluvyou143 posted a quote
April 26, 2013 10:18pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 11 Things were going really well with Sebastian and me; and it was starting to worry me. In movies this was usually the time that something happens that tars the two apart. I don’t have any experience in relationships and I don’t know if that always happens in really life but it sure seems like it. That’s what happened in all of Spencer’s past loves. Actually this is the longest relationship she’s ever been in. She really loves Logan and I’m happy for them. Thinking about Logan reminds me of Jason. I never see him around school, not that I ever really did, but occasionally Sebastian and I walk by his locker and he’s never there. I don’t ask Spencer or Logan because I don’t want them to think I care about him. I never thought I would be one of those girls that played a guy but that is exactly what I did to Jason and I know it. It’s not like I planned on doing it though, it just kind of happened. I may have started to get a small crush on him but it was always Sebastian that I thought about at the end of the day. Well anyway Sebastian and I are going to the aquarium today and I’m really excited. I walked into my closet and got dressed in something cute. After I got ready I walked down stairs and grabbed my purse. I took out my phone and sat down on the couch. Logan walked down stairs and over to the fridge to get a drink. After he pulled one out he walked over and sat down on the couch that was next to the couch I was on. “What are you dressed up for?” he asked, taking a sip of him drink. “Sebastian and I are going to the aquarium today.” I answered. “Oh. What ever happened with you and Jason?” “Logan you know exactly what happened.” “No I mean after you started to date Sebastian. You guys aren’t even friends?” “He like disappeared off the face of the earth. The last time I talked to him was when I tried to apologize to him on my birthday, and he denied me.” “Come to think of it, he’s been walking to school lately and acting kind of weird.” “What do you mean weird?” “Well he comes home, goes into his room, shuts the door and blasts him music. He usually doesn’t come out till dinner time.” “Has he ever done it before?” “No. He really only started doing it after that day we all went out to dinner.” Logan said, still not realizing the truth. He was doing it because of me. I broke his heart. I scarred him for life. Every time he is going to try to date another girl he will think of me and run as fast as he can. I have ruined all of his future loves, which I didn’t even know I was capable of doing before this year. I heard a knock on the door and was so relieved that I wouldn’t have to think about it anymore. I jumped off the couch and over to the door. When I opened the door I whispered to Sebastian not to kiss me because I knew Logan was watching us. I closed the door and then I told Sebastian we were good. “That was the hardest thing I ever had to do.” He said as he grabbed my head and kissed me passionately. His tongue touched my lips, asking for entrance, so I opened my lips to it. As he pulled his tongue out he bit my lip and I got the most amazing feeling. He grabbed my hand and walked me to his car. He opened the door for me and I got in, but before he closed it he leaned in and kissed me again. Sebastian drove, with his hand intertwined in mine, and I smiled out the window. When we pulled into the aquarium parking lot Sebastian ran around the car and opened my door. I walked out and then grabbed his hand yet again. We walked around, continuing to hold hands, and looked at all the adorable animals in their tanks swimming around happily. The weirdest thing is, I started thinking about the purpose of life. What is the purpose of life anyway? I thought. In parts of our lives we just do the same exact thing every day. What is the point of life if you are just going to do the same exact thing every day? Wouldn’t you want to change things up, be spontaneous? Get a tattoo, go skinny dipping, cut school, sleep in, miss work, or not answer your phone? I guess there really is no point. Eventually you will burn out, and give up. outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/chapter_11/set?id=79237815
iluvyou143 posted a quote
April 17, 2013 1:43pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 10 I twirled around and looked in the mirror as I waited for Sebastian to come pick me up. I was having dinner at his house and I was going to meet his parents. I was really nervous and I didn’t want to let it show, but it was really hard. Sebastian kept saying all day to just be myself and they’ll love me, but I just kept thinking about how they wanted him to be with Mackenzie, not me. The doorbell rang and I knew it was him so I grabbed everything I needed and then ran down stairs. My mom had already answered the door and she was talking to Sebastian. “Bye mom.” I said, trying to signal her to stop talking to him. “Bye sweetie, have a great time.” she said, and I ran out the door before she could say anything embarrassing. We got in the car and started driving to his house. I knew he was rich but when we pulled up to his house I wasn’t sure if it was a hotel or his house. He had a gate outside of his property and he had to put in a code. He also had a really long driveway that had trees with pink flowers all around the road. I looked around, amazed at what I was seeing. We pulled up in front of his house and I just stared out the window. Sebastian came to my door and opened it for me. “It was my great grandfather’s house and then my grandpa added on. They’re doing some renovating in the back but it should be done by the summer.” He said, noticing that I was amazed. “It’s beautiful.” I said. “Thanks. I’m kind of bored of it though. I mean you may think it’s big but I’ve known the ins and outs of this house since I was five.” “It must have been fun when you were younger though; always bringing new friends over so you can impress them.” “No, I never really bring people over here. I used to try and keep it a secret till Mackenzie opened her big mouth. She lives right next door.” “That’s sweet.” I said. “We better get inside. My parents are eager to meet you.” My stomach started to knot but I just tried my best to ignore it. Sebastian held my hand as we walked up the stairs and inside. As soon as we closed the door his parents ran into the room. “Mom, Dad, this is my girlfriend Bailey.” Sebastian said. Girlfriend? That sounded nice. “Hello Bailey, it’s very nice to meet you.” His dad said shaking my hand. “It’s nice to meet you too.” I said. His mom kind of stood to the side and didn’t say much and I was starting to get the feeling that it was because of Mackenzie. His mom was probably the one pushing him to date her. I really didn’t care though. As long as he didn’t listen to her, I’m fine. We walked into the kitchen and sat down for dinner. Everything was good during dinner. Sebastian’s parents asked me about my life and I told them everything they could know. They also told me about a couple of things I didn’t know like that Sebastian had a younger brother and a younger sister. They were at their grandparent’s house right now but they would probably be home by the time we are finished eating. I was actually kind of excited because I loved kids, but confused as to why he never told me. That’s not one of those things you just forget. I didn’t want to overthink it because this was all so perfect. I loved him and he loved me, and I didn’t want things to get messed up. As we finished up I tried to help his mom as much as I could but she just pushed me away. It’s weird but she kind of reminds me of girls like Mackenzie and Dylan. She’s not as straight forward as they would be but she’s still a lot like them. She’s one of those girls you just don’t want to mess with. Sebastian came over and grabbed my arm. He pulled me over and we sat down on the couch. “She gets like that sometimes.” He whispered in my ear. I smiled and then the door opened. Sebastian’s little sister and brother ran into the room and jumped on Sebastian. Before they got away he sat them down and introduced them to me. “Mason this is my girlfriend Bailey, Bailey this is Mason.” He said. “It’s nice to meet you Mason.” I said in a soft baby Voice. He smiled and then got up and ran away. “And Isabella this is Bailey, Bailey this is Isabella.” “Hi Isabella.” I said. She just kind of looked at me for a minute and then she smiled and hugged me. “They are so adorable.” I said as Isabella ran to Mason and they started playing together. “Thank you. I better get you home though.” Sebastian said as he stood up from the couch. He walked over and grabbed his keys as I went and said thank you and goodbye to his parents. We got into his car and drove down his long driveway. Sebastian held my hand and we sat in silence. Not in the awkward kind of silence but the satisfied kind of silence. We were both satisfied with what happened and what was happening. I couldn’t as for things to go any better, and I don’t think Sebastian would either. outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/chapter_baileys_birthday/set?id=78711288
iluvyou143 posted a quote
April 6, 2013 10:32pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 7 I searched and searched through my closet and I couldn’t find one thing to wear to the dance. I had 5 hours and I was started to get very aggravated. Spencer walked into my room with her dress on to see what I thought and saw that I didn’t have mine on and asked, “Where’s your dress?” “I don’t have one.” I answered. “Bailey, you have a dress for everyday of the week for the whole year, you have to have a dress.” She said. ”I don’t have any I want to wear.” “Come on.” Spencer said and walked out my room and down stairs. I grabbed my purse and followed her. We drove around town and probably went to 15 different stores before I found the dress I wanted. When we got home I was so tired and I couldn’t feel my feet. “I never want to look at another dress for the rest if my life.” I said while I lay on my bed. “Then don’t go in your closet.” Spencer said and we giggled. “Now go put your dress on and we’ll work from there.” I walked into my closet and put on my dress. When I walked back out we did my hair and makeup. I put on some accessories and then we were ready to go. Logan and Jason picked us up and when I got in the car I started to get really nervous. My heart was pounding really fast and I was kind of sweating. I sat next to Jason and he seemed kind of nervous too. We pulled up to the school and when I got out Sebastian was in the car behind us. He stepped out of the car and I could see Mackenzie through the window waiting for him to open the door for her, but he didn’t. I guess he wasn’t lying; he really didn’t want to bring her. That didn’t matter anymore though. I turned my head and laced my arm into Jason’s as we walked toward the school. “Don’t even pay any attention to that jerk, he doesn’t deserve you anyway.” Jason whispered in my ear. “Thanks Jason” I said smiling and then squeezed his arm harder. I was having a pretty good time at the dance and I was really happy I went with Jason. The only part that was making it not good was that every time I turned my head, I saw Sebastian. I wasn’t trying to let him ruin my night, but it was pretty hard to ignore him. In a few minutes they were going to announce the homecoming king and queen and everyone here is sure that they are going to be Mackenzie and Sebastian. “Excuse me everyone. It’s come the time to announce the homecoming queen and homecoming king.” A boy from student council said on the microphone. “And the homecoming king is,” he said and then paused to open the envelope, “Sebastian Duke.” What a surprise, I thought as he walked up to the stage smiling and high fiving ever person he walked past. “And the homecoming queen is… Mackenzie Kane.” She walked up blowing kisses to everyone, as if she was famous or something. “Now let’s give the lovely couple their spotlight dance.” The boy on the microphone said. Now you would think that Sebastian would be so happy since he just got homecoming queen, but he didn’t seem like he was. If you looked in his eyes it kind of looked like he was screaming for help. They walked out to the dance floor and they turned on the music. Mackenzie put out her hand for him to grab it, but he didn’t. Instead she wrapped her arms around his neck really tight so he wouldn’t walk away, but he did anyway. “I can’t do this.” Sebastian said as he pushed her off of him. “What are you talking about?” Mackenzie asked. “I don’t like you Mackenzie, I like Bailey. I always liked Bailey, I just didn’t know how to say it.” he said walking over to me. I didn’t know what to do. I came to the dance with Jason and I couldn’t just leave him for another guy, he would never forgive me. Sebastian walked up to me and grabbed my hand. “Would you like to dance with me?” he asked. I turned my head and looked at Jason for the answer. “Go.” He said smiling. “Thank you.” I mouthed as I walked out to the dance floor with Sebastian. He wrapped his arms around my back and I out mine around his neck. “So what made you decide to say that?” I asked him as we danced. “To be honest, it was kind of a speer of the moment kind of thing. When I saw you with Jason I got really jealous; and being with Mackenzie only made it worse. Plus you didn’t look very happy with him.” Sebastian pointed out. “You’re right.” I admitted. “So what made you decide to forgive me?” Sebastian asked me. “Well I figured since you had the courage to say that in front of everyone the least I could do was give you a dance.” I teased and we both giggled. “I’m glad you said something though. I like a guy that speaks his mind.” “And I like a girl that doesn’t like guys take advantage of her.” Sebastian said. “Look bailey, I know I messed up but if you’re willing to give me another chance I promise it won’t happen again.” “Ok, I’ll give you another chance.” outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=78130405
iluvyou143 posted a quote
April 5, 2013 10:19pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 6 I hate crying, even when no one is looking. I feel like I’m letting myself down. No one has the right to make me cry and if they do they’re not worth it. Next Friday was the homecoming dance and Spencer says I should go anyway but I don’t think it’s a very good idea. She said that Jason would be happy to bring me and don’t get me wrong he seems like a nice guy but he just seems strange. He says he sees me in school but I’ve never seen him once and he claims that he didn’t hear anything about Sebastian and me. Or maybe it’s just me trying to make up reasons because I never wanna feel this way again. Spencer asked me if I wanted to go with her, Logan, and Jason out to dinner on Friday and I decided to go to get my mind off of things. We weren’t going to a fancy place so I just planed on wearing what I wore to school. When it came time to go I looked in the mirror and then went down stairs and out to Spencer’s car. “So do you think you’re going to go to the dance with Jason?” Spencer asked me as we pulled out of the driveway. “Um I don’t know. I don’t even really know him. He’s so quiet and awkward.” I explained. “You know what. I thought the same thing about Logan when I first met him, and now I’m sure he’s the love of my life.” I started to think about it and then got really grossed out. “Well I don’t think that’s going to happen between us and plus, if you and Logan get married he’ll be my brother in law.” I pointed out. “I’m just saying.” Spencer said. We got to the restaurant and they were already waiting inside. Spencer said hi to Logan and gave him a kiss. I was being really shy and I didn’t really know why but I smiled and then said hi really softly, but he still heard me. Throughout the dinner I got less and less quiet. I really felt like I was starting to get to know Jason. I felt nice to make a friend when I knew they didn’t want anything from me. He was a nice boy who enjoyed school and sports. He plays soccer and baseball. He told me he doesn’t usually tell people he plays sports because he doesn’t want them to think he is a stuck up jock, and I thought that was cute. He was nothing like Sebastian. He didn’t care what the “popular” kids thought about him and he didn’t care if people didn’t like him. He always acted like his complete self and if people didn’t like that, it’s their loss. After dinner was over we all walked outside. Spencer and Logan started making out and Jason and I Just started cracking up. I really didn’t like PDA but Spencer is the exact opposite. I stopped laughing for a second and then looked into Jason’s eyes. As soon as he stared back I jerked my head to the ground and smiled. He lifted his hand to my check and tilted my head up. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine. He leaned in and our lips touched. I could really tell if Jason or Sebastian was a better kisser but they were both really good. “Do you want to go to the Homecoming dance with me?” Jason asked as we pulled away. “I’d love that.” outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/chapter/set?id=77331686
iluvyou143 posted a quote
March 30, 2013 10:16pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 5 I have never felt heartbreak or betrayal before but now I’m feeling them all together. Why did I let myself fall for him? Why didn’t I just say that he couldn’t sit with me? It’s too late now, and I always say not to live in the past, so I’m going to just put it behind me and move on. I got out of my bed and put on my outfit. I went along with my normal morning routine and acted like nothing even happened. Spencer didn’t ask any questions and I’m guessing she caught along to what I was trying to do. My day was pretty much like yesterday but a little less intense. I could tell some other big thing happened so most people were hooked on that now. I was keeping my act up really good but I didn’t know how lunch would be. To be honest, I really didn’t want to go at all. I went to my locker right before lunch and Mackenzie and Dylan walked by and laughed. I didn’t know what they were laughing at and I didn’t care, but I’m sure I would find out soon anyway. Right before I walked into the lunch room I took a deep breath, fixed my face to look like nothing was wrong, and then walked on the line to get my lunch. I stood there for a few minutes and then Sebastian and his friends came on line behind me. Suddenly I felt really uncomfortable because I knew they all knew about me and Sebastian. I didn’t turn around I just kept looking forward and tried to pretend I didn’t have anything to do with them. They all started to laugh and I felt like they were laughing at me and I just couldn’t take it. I walked out of line and went right to the lunch table. I guess I’m not having lunch today, I thought. I looked over at Sebastian and his friends to see if they were still laughing at me and I saw Spencer walk through the door and flash him a dirty look. She walked right over to my table and sat down. “What are you doing here?” I asked her. “Well I knew you had lunch with Sebastian this period and I wanted to check if you were ok. I know you were trying to keep up your little act but I wasn’t sure how long you could. Are you ok?” I shook my head, “No.” Spencer gave me a hug and I put my head on her shoulder. I held in the tears as much as I could, but some slipped out. “Incoming.” Spencer said. I picked my head up from her shoulder and wiped away the tears. And again he sat down at his table without even a simple Hi. A few seconds later Mackenzie walked over and sat next to him and that really hit me. “Bailey just don’t pay attention to them.” I turned around and faced the other way. “This is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be.” I admitted. “I know. But I’m only a phone call away if you need me. I better get back to class though. Are you gonna be ok?” “Yeah, I’ll be fine.” “I love you.” Spencer said. “Love you too. And Spenc, thanks.” “It’s what I’m here for.” She said and then left. I sat there alone for a while and then suddenly Sebastian stood up and then sat down at my table. “Bailey we need to talk.” He said. “We already talked Sebastian. You made your decision. You should go talk to Mackenzie.” I said. “I don’t want to talk to her; I never wanted to talk to her.” “Then I think you might have made the wrong decision.” “And that’s why I’m trying to fix it right now.” “You can’t fix it. The damage is already done. You’re already going to the dance with her and there’s nothing we can do about that.” “Yes there is. Say you’ll go with me right now and it’s fixed.” He said, making it sound so simple. “You don’t get it do you? You really think coming over here and saying a few things is going to make up for all of this, cause it’s not.” “Then tell me what I have to do and I’ll do it.” “Sebastian, you are not who I thought you were. You think that just because you’re you, you can go around breaking girls hearts and then ask for their forgiveness and they’re just gonna melt right into your hands, well that is not going to work on me.” “So you’re not gonna go to the dance with me?” he asked cluelessly. “Goodbye Sebastian.” I stood up and walked out of the lunch room, again. This time I wouldn’t be going back into his trap. outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=77331686
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March 30, 2013 3:39pm UTC
Lost and Insecure Chapter 4 “You should have listened to me Bailey,” Mackenzie said coming up behind me at my locker, “I was trying to protect you, but now it’s too late. He broke your heart and there’s nothing any of us can do about it.” “Who said he broke my heart? He didn’t talk to me for one day, I think I’ll live.” I said. “Oh, you didn’t hear?” “Hear what?” “He asked me to go to the homecoming dance with me today.” She said trying to sound like she felt bad when she obviously didn’t. “Well I hope you have fun.” I said and walked out to Spencer’s car. When I got there she wasn’t there yet, but I could see her walking this way with her boyfriend, Logan. When they started to get closer I saw that Logan’s brother, Jason, was walking with them. Great, I thought. I didn’t like talking to people in the first place and I really don’t feel like talking right now. When he got in the car I put my head against the glass and didn’t talk to anyone. “So was today as bad as I said it was going to be?” Spencer asked, obviously talking to me. Worse, I wanted to say, but I didn’t. “Yeah pretty much.” I answered. “Did he talk to you?” “Nope, and guess what.” “What?” “He asked Mackenzie Kane to homecoming.” I said and Spencer gasped. “No he didn’t!” she said in disbelief. “Yes, he did.” When I got home I went straight upstairs and did my homework. After I finished I went on the computer and went on Tumblr. I kept thinking about how Mackenzie said Sebastian asked her to homecoming and I wondered if she was lying. Should I text him? No, he probably wants nothing to do with me now. He’s too embarrassed to be seen with you. I picked up my phone and then set it back down right as it started to vibrate, it was Sebastian. “I’m sorry about today.” It said. “It’s ok I guess.” I answered. I waited a few seconds and then he said, “I don’t know why I didn’t talk to you. It just seemed like you didn’t want to talk to me.” “How did it seem like that?” I answered “I don’t know.” Was his response. “So Mackenzie came up to me again today.” I told him. “Oh great, what did she say this time?” he asked. “Um, she told me about how you asked her to homecoming.” “Oh, people know about that already.” He said, confirming that Mackenzie was not lying, but he was last night. “Oh, well I hope you guys have a good time together.” I lied. “Bailey it’s not what you think. Mackenzie’s family is friend with mine and my parents told me I had to bring her or else I couldn’t go. I had no choice.” “You always have a choice Sebastian.” “No, you don’t know my parents Bailey.” “I don’t have to know them, everyone has a choice, and you just made yours. Goodbye Sebastian.” I stood up and put my phone on my dresser and then went down stairs. My parents went out for a dinner with my dad’s work so it was just Spencer, Logan and me. I went into the kitchen to get a drink and when I turned around I saw Jason sitting on the couch watching TV. “Oh you’re still here?” I asked sounding a little startled. “Yeah, my parents think we’re out with our cousins so I can’t exactly go home without him.” Jason explained. “Oh.” I said walking into the living room and sitting on the other couch. “So what happened with you and Sebastian?” he asked, as if he didn’t already know. “Well I fell for him, he said he fell for me then he kissed me and now he’s moved on to the next girl.” I said, trying to leave out the pointless details. “I’m sorry about that. He must be a real jerk to let you go.” “Thanks. But the worst part is, I knew it was too good to be true but I believed it anyway.” comment to be notified!