Lost and Insecure
Chapter 6
I hate crying, even when no one is looking. I feel like I’m
letting myself down. No one has the right to make me cry and if
they do they’re not worth it. Next Friday was the homecoming
dance and Spencer says I should go anyway but I don’t think
it’s a very good idea. She said that Jason would be happy to
bring me and don’t get me wrong he seems like a nice guy but
he just seems strange. He says he sees me in school but I’ve
never seen him once and he claims that he didn’t hear
anything about Sebastian and me. Or maybe it’s just me trying
to make up reasons because I never wanna feel this way again.
Spencer asked me if I wanted to go with her, Logan, and Jason out
to dinner on Friday and I decided to go to get my mind off of
things. We weren’t going to a fancy place so I just planed on
wearing what I wore to school. When it came time to go I looked in
the mirror and then went down stairs and out to Spencer’s
car.
“So do you think you’re going to go to the dance with
Jason?” Spencer asked me as we pulled out of the
driveway.
“Um I don’t know. I don’t even really know him.
He’s so quiet and awkward.” I explained.
“You know what. I thought the same thing about Logan when I
first met him, and now I’m sure he’s the love of my
life.” I started to think about it and then got really
grossed out.
“Well I don’t think that’s going to happen
between us and plus, if you and Logan get married he’ll be my
brother in law.” I pointed out.
“I’m just saying.” Spencer said. We got to the
restaurant and they were already waiting inside. Spencer said hi to
Logan and gave him a kiss. I was being really shy and I
didn’t really know why but I smiled and then said hi really
softly, but he still heard me. Throughout the dinner I got less and
less quiet. I really felt like I was starting to get to know Jason.
I felt nice to make a friend when I knew they didn’t want
anything from me. He was a nice boy who enjoyed school and sports.
He plays soccer and baseball. He told me he doesn’t usually
tell people he plays sports because he doesn’t want them to
think he is a stuck up jock, and I thought that was cute. He was
nothing like Sebastian. He didn’t care what the
“popular” kids thought about him and he didn’t
care if people didn’t like him. He always acted like his
complete self and if people didn’t like that, it’s
their loss. After dinner was over we all walked outside. Spencer
and Logan started making out and Jason and I Just started cracking
up. I really didn’t like PDA but Spencer is the exact
opposite. I stopped laughing for a second and then looked into
Jason’s eyes. As soon as he stared back I jerked my head to
the ground and smiled. He lifted his hand to my check and tilted my
head up. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine. He leaned
in and our lips touched. I could really tell if Jason or Sebastian
was a better kisser but they were both really good.
“Do you want to go to the Homecoming dance with me?”
Jason asked as we pulled away.
“I’d love that.”
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Lost and Insecure Chapter 6 I hate crying, even when no one is
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