Four months without him.

It's been 4 months without you. that seems insane to me. it seems like it was yesterday that you were sending me cute emails and telling me how badly you wanted to touch me or to smell me. It's crazy to think where you would be now. I miss you so much it's crazy. I guess i've been trying to deal with the thought that you are gone but i can't really. Over an over i tell myself you are in the hospital and one day you will come back and call me baby and you'll blush when i call you alexywalexy because you call me a poet or you'll tell me how much you love the petname baby waby. It's insane to think i'll never see you again. Honestly that just makes me get a huge lump in my throat. What is life like without you? where are you? I wish i knew. This is the first time in a long time that i wished i believed in "God" i think it would be easier i could look up at teh sky and imagine you there. But instead i'm just a lost boy looking for his best friend. Iva and i haven't been doing so well, i remember those times when you went so far to find her for me, i never said thank you enough. i go back and through this and i just i look at how amazing you were. You said you were in love with me, and i felt it. We only fought once and that was my fault at missing you, if you see this i hope you know i wish we never fought. i never told you because i was terrified of love, but Alexander i am in love with you too. It's really hard you know? to get over someone who died loving you. I think a part of me will always be yours. I'm getting a ring its just solid silver or white gold and its going to have yoru name on the inside adn ill wear it on a chain or on my finger. I have a tattoo it faintly says AF on my ankle i hope to ad onto that and do something more about that too like a picture or something. It;s been really rough without you i can't believe it's been 4 months... I found a guy he made me really happy his name is Danny. H's sweet he reminds me a lot of you, i think if you were here you and him would be friends if like there wasn't me. I'm not sure where i'm going in life yet i draw your name and the date you died on my hand still every day. people think its weird others think its really cute and special. I'm getting that quote on a necklace as well i dont care if it's girly i miss you you made me feel okay. I don't know if i was ever as happy as i was in january. i remember when i switched schools how concerned you were you stayed up all night with me. Danny does that too he stays up with me. We used to date him and i, but right now i think we're trying to be friends. I don't think i'm over you i don't know if i'll ever be. it's really hard. i miss your everything. I just want to wake up and go on aim and you be like Hey baby!!! and then just that feeling. I miss you so much Alex. I will love you until the end of time BabyWaby <3
Rest in Paradise Alexander Fruk
May 4th, 2013
I Love You.

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Four months without him. It's been 4 months without you.

32 faves · 14 comments · Sep 4, 2013 10:45pm

TheCookieNinja · 1 decade ago
:( R.I.P Alexander. He died the day my uncle did. You and Alex seemed perfect together from what Iv'e read.
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someoneinhiding · 1 decade ago
sweetest thing ever. You may not believe in God but I do and I know Alex is in heaven smiling at this sending his love to you. <3
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meow* · 1 decade ago
Rest In Peace, Alex..
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
When you guys say that, like rest in peace to him it makes me happy. I feel like although i feel bad for him dying and stuff that like i make people know our story and he lives on in that. I write about him a lot. He was my brother almost my best friend and my boyfriend. he was the guy i admitted i was gay to and he never pressured me at all we were so perfect i will never stop missing him
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meow* · 1 decade ago
awwwwwwwwwwwh <3
you guys are just so perfect, :)
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
We were far from perfect but he made me stop cutting and i made him stop cutting. we stopped doing the bad drugs together. he actually made me happy. the best nights ever were when he stayed up all night and fell asleep he would get really really cute about it and call me cute pet names. His mum wouldnt let me sleep in his bed if we visited there so i had a plan of sleeping in his closet and this summer he was going to come here, in his closet and jump out and kiss me. He was the perfect one. i dont get why hes not here anymore it kills me really
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meow* · 1 decade ago
all the good people get taken away, but now heaven is blessed with his amazing soul. you guys are perfect for each other. true love. i bet he misses you alot and wishes he could hold you and kiss you, he misses you more than ever.. i know times are hard, but just remeber an angel is always watching you and that angel is alex.
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
I dont like believe in "God" or heaven or all of that but for some reason i look at the sky and picture him. He did believe so i mean i guess its under his wishes that i picture if there is a heaven he is there. I know hes my like "Guardian angel" When i get really bad i see him even if its just my mind i see him and he yells at me he tells me i have to take care of myself because he cant and i cant die because he cant lose his purpose to be here. And yeah i mean i sound crazy even to me but i love him and i dont believe hes just 6 foot under the ground. Hes better than that
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meow* · 1 decade ago
wow, nah you're not crazy you're perfectly fine, and yeah live for him.. you can do it.. later on, you'll be with him and he'll be so proud of you for surviving for him. <3,
Im proud of you too because it takes a lot of strenght to continue living after that one person who means everything to you is gone. Keep your head up and ignore the haters they dont know anything and dont understand. :)
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requestedroses · 1 decade ago
this is amazing.. i need a moment
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
Alexander is my forever love. Nothing will ever ever change that. On my weheartit it still says taken by him idk if i'll ever change it. We didn't know eachother forever but the time i spent with him was probably the happiest i have been in my life. He is my perfection and i hope hes looking in on my life some how and he knows how much i love and miss him
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*♥︎Lady Ave♥︎* · 1 decade ago
<3 We all miss him. R.I.P. Alex
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
You guys were with me through the ups and downs. when he was good and when he was bad. when i complained about him not talking to me and when i was so freaking happy when he did. You guys get it as good as my friends. You know how much he meant to me. He was my little bit of perfection
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*♥︎Lady Ave♥︎* · 1 decade ago
Yes I do remember. You guys were like a lil peice in my heart that would dance around happily. Guess what? It still is that way in my lil heart. I know for a fact he misses you too.
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