i hate the fact that i am always the person who likes others more, like if someone just leaves me, it really fcking destroys me, and i don't really know what to do. i feel confused about everything for weeks, years even, and i don't really know what i have done to make everyone leave me. i don't understand how people can just be totally okay. it's like no matter what, i am always the one that hurts the most, and that really fcking sucks.