Hai my name is Amara I am currtenly 15 and a sophomore I was born November 16th 1997. I go to an Alternative high school due to my anxiety, I'm African American. i live with my mom, older sister and little brother and half sister. I love rap it makes me feel so much better<3 i have insomina which is cool sometimes but it kinda suck. I lost my best friend of 4 years Eden Hope Wormer March 6th 2012 to suicide.. I still remember the day I first and last saw her, nobody understand the bon we had, we were like sister where ever she was I was we did everything together. she was like part of my family and basically lived with me, and then one day she is gone forever. i remember the day I found out like the back of my hand, I wish i could forget it but I cant and most likly wont. it was the worse day of my life, I slipped into a major depression. and got diagnosed with bipolar, anger issuse and anxiety and was in intense therapy for 6.5 months. its been almost 2 years and I'm still not over it, but I'm glad to say I'm not depressed anymore and my anxiety isnt as bad. I'm still working on my anger but I think I got it. There isnt a day I dont think about Eden, I have to live with the fact my best friend wont be there for me when I'm getting married, having kids, get my first job and car, go to collage and to do all the things we planed together.. and that kills me. theres some days its so bad i cant get out of bed, some days are better then others. But I know she is with me everyday all day and every step and breath I take. i gotta be strong for the both of us because she couldnt be.. Everything I do is all for my best friend.<3 i love you boobear.. rest in peace 12.31.2012-3.06.2012.</3
Hey eden, I really miss you about now, I'm about to start 10th grade in 8 day's I wish my best friend could be there with me.. I've been feeling kinda blah latly I don't know why. I think its because I don't talk to anyone about my problems like I did with you.. I just don't trust anyone like I trusted you.. it kinda sucks, I wish I had someone to vent too. I try not to cry anymore, because I know you are with me every step I take. But its hard, because I super misss youuuuu.. I wish I could feel you with me, but I can't. I wish I could just have my best friend back again.. id do anything for that! Well I miss you and I love you boo Rest in peace best frienddd 12.31.997-03.06.2013
I don't understand why people sit there and say that other people are the reasons for their scars from cutting. I'm not trying to be a b*tch but that's actually not true, nobody told you to cut. They may have f*cked you over or hurt you or whatever but nobody makes you cut. You cut because you choose to. There are waaaay more ways to deal with pain, but you choose to do that. So you're the reasons you have scars, nobody else. So stop blamimg peope for your choices.