"I missed you guys so much!" I told them, trying to keep the frown from appearing on my face.
“You have got an amazing tan,” Diana said. “Did you see Jesse or Ryan?”
“No,” I lied. It would be easier if I just forgot about the whole trip. The flight back to Sydney was long and got me thinking things that I was trying to avoid.
How long had Jesse had Major Depressive Disorder? Did he still have it?
It made me feel guilty, maybe I could've helped him.
I hated the way we ended, the fight, it just didn't feel right but I knew it was to late. I couldn't do anything to fix it, I didn't deserve him. He was amazing and I was just me.
“Oh, pity! It would've been amazing if you had, I bet Jesse would've been just as hot in real life.”
“Defiantly,” Crystal agreed. I just smiled weakly in response. “What's wrong?” Crystal asked, concerned.
“I'm just really, really tired. I think I'm going to go home.” After saying my goodbyes, I got into my car and drove home, going straight to bed but sleep never consumed me. I just lay in bed, staring at my sealing wondering what Jesse was doing right at that moment. My mind flicked to Rose and for a second, I understood why Jesse was ever with her.
At least she wouldn't break his heart.
Jesse touched the little key charm. “You are the only girl who will ever have the key to my heart, so please don't lose it,” the vulnerability in his voice was clear.
Gosh, I missed him. I looked down at my bracelet and finally, the tears started falling. It hurt, it hurt like hell.
“Jesse,” I whimpered, quietly. I don't know when I fell asleep but all I knew was when I woke up, my head hurt majorly. Looking in the mirror in the morning, I realised how pathetic I was being.
This was my fault and I was acting like Jesse had just gone and got another girl pregnant. Though, the little pride I had left was stopping me from calling Jesse up or something. He wouldn't be able to contact me with a phone, even if he wanted to because my number was different here in Australia. I went to school and everything was chaotic because there was little time until the HSE.
“Andi, hang on!” Crystal called out.
“What's up?” I asked.
“Are you okay?”
“W-what?” I stuttered... did she know?
“You just seem a little off.”
“Oh,” I replied. “I'm just really stressed.” It was surprising how quickly the lie rolled off my tongue and Crystal seemed happy with my answer.
“I'm sure you'll do fine,” she responded.
“Hopefully.” I crossed my fingers and she smiled.
“Okay, c'mon, we have English.” I followed Crystal into English and we spoke until the teacher arrived. For once in my life, I enjoyed going to school because there was no time for me to think, I could never get lost in thoughts and I was always busy and that seemed to be what I needed.
I just needed to forget. 

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