is this what heartbreak feels like?
it's an entirely unavoidable feeling in the pit of your stomach, it's like someone is ripping my heart out and twisting, like a knife in my back.
it makes you question who you are: did i try too hard to seem likeable? did i not try enough? does it scare you that i'm smart? or do i seem ditzy? Am I not pretty enough? Do I have to wear too much makeup? Or do I not wear enough? Do I dress like a slob, or do you wish I dressed in sweats more often? I think of you when I'm getting ready, whether or not I look "good enough", whether or not YOU'll like me. Its clear now that you don't, I just wish you would have told me.
I wouldn't have spent the past 7 months pretending to be a "cool girl", dressing in "cool" clothes, doing my makeup like all the "cool girls" do.
Ive been so gone for you, you know. do you catch me staring? Im sorry if you do, I thought I saw you staring too but maybe it was at a poster behind me, or at one of my friends. I understand.
i told myself to move on months ago, that you weren't interested. And I did. I dated other guys, but every time I would think about you, about how I'd rather be watching a movie with you, how I'd rather watch soccer and talk sports with you. I bet you didn't know how we like the same sports, but I do. We have more in common than you think, but it's too late now.
heres the thing: I can date other guys, but every fcking time, it'll come back to you.
this is what heartbreak feels like.
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