is this what heartbreak feels
like?
it's an entirely unavoidable feeling in the
pit of your stomach, it's like someone is ripping my
heart out and twisting, like a knife in my back.
it makes you question who you are: did i try too hard to seem
likeable? did i not try enough? does it scare you that
i'm smart? or do i seem ditzy? Am I not pretty enough?
Do I have to wear too much makeup? Or do I not wear enough? Do I
dress like a slob, or do you wish I dressed in sweats more often?
I think of you when I'm getting ready, whether or not I look
"good enough", whether or not YOU'll like me. Its
clear now that you don't, I just wish you would have told
me.
I wouldn't have spent the past 7 months pretending to be a
"cool girl", dressing in "cool" clothes,
doing my makeup like all the "cool girls" do.
Ive been so gone for you, you know. do you catch me staring? Im
sorry if you do, I thought I saw you staring too but maybe it was
at a poster behind me, or at one of my friends. I understand.
i told myself to move on months ago, that you weren't
interested. And I did. I dated other guys, but every time I would
think about you, about how I'd rather be watching a movie
with you, how I'd rather watch soccer and talk sports with
you. I bet you didn't know how we like the same sports, but I
do. We have more in common than you think, but it's too late
now.
heres the thing: I can date other guys, but every fcking time,
it'll come back to you.
this is what heartbreak feels
like.
gab* · 6 years ago
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i feel this on a personal level