is this what heartbreak feels like? it's an entirely unavoidable feeling in the pit of your stomach, it's like someone is ripping my heart out and twisting, like a knife in my back. it makes you question who you are: did i try too hard to seem likeable? did i not try enough? does it scare you that i'm smart? or do i seem ditzy? Am I not pretty enough? Do I have to wear too much makeup? Or do I not wear enough? Do I dress like a slob, or do you wish I dressed in sweats more often? I think of you when I'm getting ready, whether or not I look "good enough", whether or not YOU'll like me. Its clear now that you don't, I just wish you would have told me. I wouldn't have spent the past 7 months pretending to be a "cool girl", dressing in "cool" clothes, doing my makeup like all the "cool girls" do. Ive been so gone for you, you know. do you catch me staring? Im sorry if you do, I thought I saw you staring too but maybe it was at a poster behind me, or at one of my friends. I understand. i told myself to move on months ago, that you weren't interested. And I did. I dated other guys, but every time I would think about you, about how I'd rather be watching a movie with you, how I'd rather watch soccer and talk sports with you. I bet you didn't know how we like the same sports, but I do. We have more in common than you think, but it's too late now. heres the thing: I can date other guys, but every fcking time, it'll come back to you. this is what heartbreak feels like.
thank you, witty. I haven't logged on in over two weeks and it's become clear to me that today is my time to move on. I joined witty back in 2011 and have met some of the nicest people possible (I'll thank you later). But today, as a junior in high school, I've finally reached what I came on Witty to achieve: happiness. At this point in my life, witty only distracts me from school work and personal life and I simply have no more time to log on. I want to thank some of my true friends on here, whether they're active or not. I'd first like to thank Meagan (lovecrazy), who was one of my first friends on here. She left a bout two years ago, but she made such a lasting impression to not be afraid of who you truly are, and for that, I'm grateful. I'd like to thank Nicole (baublefaery). If you've never spoken to Nicole, you're missing out on an undoubtedly amazing human. She is one of the kindest people you'll ever meet, and I'm so lucky to have been friends with you. Thank you to Sydney (girouxtiful), for fangirling over hockey with me all these years. You are one of the funniest people without even trying, and you never fail to put a smile on my face. Finally, I'd like to thank Bailey (beautifullyimperfect). You are one of my best friends, and (not to offend anyone) my best friend on this site. Since we started talking almost 3 years ago, you've dealt with my crazy mood swings, many crushes, and heartbreak. I know that things are hard for you right now, but I promise that one day, a guy will see how much you're truly worth and treat you like the queen you are. To everyone on this site, I wish you the best in your future and hope that you all succeed and follow your dreams. ~ love always, ally (irrestible)
i wish I could be happy. I wish I could look in the mirror and f.cking feel good about myself. But I don't. And it doesn't give you the right to tell me I'm "insane for having no self-confidence". I'm 16 years old for crying out loud. Guys call me a lesbian, girls tell me weird, so how the f.ck do you think I'm going to feel? Do you think I'll be happy all the time and life will be sunshine and butterflies and all that f.cking bull?
I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped-up four-wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seats. Took a Louisville slugger to both headlights and slashed a hole in all four tires, so Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
It’s incredible how alone one person’s absence can make you feel. I could be in a room surrounded by all my friends and family, but without you I might as well be standing on the surface of the moon. — Beau taplin, Moon Landing
confessions (because my bailey button did it) i. I'm really pale, so I tend to wear darker clothing, as I feel it makes me look both tanner and more mature. Most people think I'm goth because of it, which is entirely untrue. ii. I have a hard time trusting people and making friends, since most people at my school are hypocritical and judgmental, never really knowing me before writing me off. I've also felt violated in a more personal and sexual manner, causing me to create barriers. I'm unable to go on dates with people who my friends don't like, I have to talk to the person for at least a month and make sure they understand my boundaries and won't push them. I've never told anyone why, because I know the guy will refute my claims and tell me I'm exaggerating. iii. I'm self-conscious about my looks but not my body. I consistently wish I had a different nose or mouth to match my body, and am considering plastic surgery when I get older. I would never consider myself confident, as I tend to be more insecure, but if I had a different face to match my body, which I am extremely proud of. iv. I'm an emotional person, which has been both a blessing and a curse. My emotional side has allowed me to be more emphatetic and connect with others, however I cry at least once a day and am picked on by my family and friends because of it. v. I dream of moving to a big city, like Chicago or San Francisco, where I can start over. Living in a small town, everyone knows everyone and it haunts me, the reality being that everyone will stay in my town forever and never branch out. I don't want that to be me -- it's my biggest fear. vi. I'm insanely attracted to men that are darker. The concept of white men scare me, after my violation by a white man, my abuse from a white man, and bullying from a white man. My closest friends are of darker skin colors. They are the kindest and most inclusive, as they understand what it's like to be left on the outside. I have a special love for Cuban boys, specifically. Give me a Cuban boy and within five minutes I will fall in love -- it's a scientific fact.
“” Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.
I'd like to say we gave it a try, I'd like to blame it all on life MAYBE WE JUST WEREN'T RIGHT, BUT that's a lie, that's a lie AND WE CAN DENY IT AS MUCH AS WE want, but in time our feelings will show.
really, we had the perfect end, that night we shared at the comfort inn, we made love like the world would have ended if either of us had admitted we were in love but i was the only one, so i was the only lonely one...