Let me tell you something about pain.
Pain is killer. It will tear you apart faster than a rabid dog. You think you're strong enough to get through it, but you aren't. You can't fight it on your own, it's a fight you're destined to lose. Pain will take everything you have, and leave you with nothing. You'll be stranded there with nothing, not even yourself. You see, when you get this feeling, called pain, you fight so hard to get rid of it, that you eventually lose yourself. That person you worked so hard to become, no longer exists. They're nothing but a memory. Pain will destroy a person, if it's a strong enough feeling. It's a terrible feeling. You're doing all you can, but you just can't get rid of it. I wouldn't wish the pain I've felt upon my worst enemy, it's too much to handle. It will literally eat at you until you're gushing blood, two seconds away from death. That's what pain does, and no one should ever have to feel like that, but we do. Pain is part of life. Just know that I'm here for you.
You don't have to fight this battle on your own.