I do like 20-30 mimutes a day on an elliptical (unless someone is home. then no thank you.) depending on what time I finally get around to doing it, what I ate, the resistence, etc. and yeah it's hard, but it's supposed to be. and I can do 30 minutes of that. as a fattie. and it gives me great joy that I can do that. and that the non-fattie people in my house, that like to make me feel like crap for being a fattie, are dead and can't hit 5 minutes (even with 0 resistence.)
I need a best friend. Someone that actually wants a genuine bestie. Someone that will go on roadtrips with me. Someone that will go on adventures with me. I want to see America, I want to see the world. I want to go to hawaii and cliff dive, and I want a "ride or die" beside me. I just.. I need a best friend.
Dishonored* posted a quote
October 11, 2015 11:35pm UTC
My life has pretty much been a cluster of "bad times." My sister would always say "what do YOU have to be depressed about?" and things related to that. Tonight, I logged into her facebook account and read her messages. ("wrong"? maybe, but I was looking for something specific- I wanted to read messages about my car.) The messages about me were so cruel. It wasn't even the first time it happened, but this time was so much meaner. Her and her boyfriend both saying horrible things about me. Called me crazy, stupid, greedy, fat & lazy, and said it is an insult to be compared to me. Every message was cruelly written. THAT is what I have to be depressed about.
I'm sensitive to the point where if you look at me strangely or don't look at me at all tell me to stop talking or don't talk to me at all ignore my text or call whether what you did was an accident or you don't even realise you did anything at all It will change my mood for the whole day and my mind will be corrupted for the whole night
appleloop* posted a quote
December 22, 2013 4:26pm UTC
You cry yourself to sleep every night, headphones in your ears, music turned up loud, and think of every single bad memory in the past. You wake up every morning, get out of bed and go through your daily routine, wondering why you're still here. They treat you like dirt. You get kicked when you're down, pushed around, and you feel helpless. There comes a point in life where you realize tears can't change anything. At night, the waterworks don't come anymore. You just lay there with a blank expression on your face. You're so used to getting hurt, you don't know what to do anymore. There comes a point in your life when you realize that the only one you can depend on, is yourself.
"I think she was afraid to love sometimes. I think it scared her. She was the type to like things that are concrete, like the ocean. Something you can point to and know what it is, and I think that's why she struggled with love. She couldn't touch it. She couldn't hold on to it and make sure it never changed."
Marilyn Monroe Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullsh- it, take chances and never have regrets because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted.