I fell hard for you.
It was literally love at first sight.
I didn't realize it then and I would probably have denied it if someone had mentioned it.
But, I also knew that we didn't really have a chance, since we didn't know each other.
It was more of the idea of having someone like you in my story.
After months, I thought I got over you, finally.
I mean, it was mostly just wishful thinking.
I don't know if it seems creepy, but I guess we all have that person we fell for but never truly had.
I planned to never give up, but I also had to "move on".
You know, it had been a couple years.
Until that summer.
We got close, we became best friends.
We laughed, and you saw me when I was tired and crazy.
You put on a "judging face", but oh how we both just ended up laughing.
I realized that those butterflies never really left me.
I simply just never saw you, so they didn't have the chance to flutter their beautiful wings.
The summer came to an end, and even though we got close, a part of me wish we had a even closer connection.
Call me selfish or ungrateful,
But I still wonder what could have been.
Then, next time we saw each other,
I felt everything like the first time we met each others eyes.
I tried to not let it get to me.
We just acted like old times, seemed like you never left my side.
Later that night, you said some sweet things, things a best friend would say, but it felt like more.
You got my wishful thinking going again.
I think I love you.
Not just the idea of you.
You are a beautiful individual.
Inside and out.
You seem to doubt yourself, like everyone, but you have no reason to.
I hope we have some sort of a future.
Brief or forever.
Whatever would work.
I just want to know what it would be like to be in your arms.
Never change.
I hope you find someone that makes you truly happy and that deserves your love.
Even if it is not meant to be me.