you don't get it. i'm not
sad and miserable all the time. i have this deep feeling inside
me that takes all of these emotions at once and mushes them all
together to create something i can't exactly describe.
i'm suffocating in my own body. i can actually feel myself
slipping away. i can be surrounded by so many wonderful people
and have this feeling that no one even wants me there and that
i'm a burden. so i isolate myself from everyone and keep them
all at a certain distance so i don't end up getting hurt. but
that doesn't work. i hurt anyway. i hurt all the time and i
don't know why. i'm forced into this skin that isn't
mine. i've tried cutting my way out releasing whatever there
is inside but it always comes back and i don't understand. i
just know i'm not 'sad and miserable.'
