Close your eyes, take a deep breath and just imagine this--
You have just woken up, you have a sister that is a year older
than you. She is always in her room, so quiet. She used to be the
one that was so outgoing and loud, but everything has changed.
Usually your sister is up before you, but she isn't in the
lounge or the kitchen, you think she has just gone out for a
walk... You don't worry too much.
You go onto the computer and check all your social networking
sites, twitter, tublr, facebook and you see her status',
"This time, I'm leaving forever... I'm sorry if this
hurts anyone but its just the way it has to be." You start
to worry running round the house calling her name but you get no
reply, you ask your mom where she has gone, she says she went on
a walk so you go to the park where she normally is and you see
her sitting on the bench crying, you run over to her, you hold
her, you tell her "Everything is going to be okay," but
she screams asking you to just end this pain, with a rope beside
her and pills in front of her. You make her stand up and you hold
her tight walking away, you're just about to turn the corner
when you see these girls walking towards you, they start laughing
and your sister cries a little more. You keep walking with your
sister tight in your arms but the girls grab her from behind,
they tell her how worthless she is. You try to scream but another
girl grabs you too. She won't let you go. Your sister is
screaming for your help, she yells to you "I love you,
I'm so sorry" the three girls let her go and the other
girl let's you go to but your sister has run away nowhere to
be found. You go back to the park but this time the ropes gone
and the pills have too, you start crying and you call your mom to
tell her what has happened, she doesn't say anything,
she's in shock. She rushes home, you're still looking for
your sister. She's your world, she's your rock, she's
the one that keeps you here today, without her, you're
nothing. And without her Your moms nothing too. You walk through
a forest and you get a bad feeling, the tears are just rushing
down your face, you're shaking more than ever. You walk a
little bit more and you find the pill container... Empty. You
scream your sisters name, crying even more but there was no
response you know something has happened. You turn the corner of
the forest and you see your sister lying there, blood protruding
from her wrists, a blade lying innocently next to her. She looks
peaceful only taking a breath every minute. You immediately call
the ambulance and they arrive just after your mom. Your mom
screams; this is her baby, this is her best friend, and this girl
is her world. The ambulance takes your sister away and you go
too, they can't get any response from her now, they're
only a few minutes away from the hospital now but you know
she's gone, you know she's dead. You can't do this
without her, right? You begin to beg and plead and ask her why.
You arrive at the hospital and they rush her into emergency. Your
mom is in too much shock to even talk. 10 minutes later the
doctor comes out, your mom stands up tears rushing down her face,
the doctor says "I'm sorry for what I'm about to
tell you but we could not save her... It was too late." At
this point in time your mom drops to the floor, her whole world
has just taken a crashing. You run outside and you can't stop
screaming, you're finding it hard to breath and you don't
want to live anymore. A few days later is her funeral, so many
people turn up. They al line up to see her, she looks peaceful,
she eventually looks happy, but you're not... Your moms
not... And your whole family is devastated. Her bestfriend
hasn't talked to anyone since she found out, her bestfriend
is now harming herself. Your mom looks out the window for more
than half the day and you can't see yourself going back to
school for a while. No-one has entered her room, and it will stay
that way, her door will remain shut and no-one will go in. A year
passes and a few weeks ago you sisters bestfriend committed
suicide. Her bestfriend made a promise to your sister, "you
go, I go" her bestfriend? Well she kept that promise... You
still haven't returned to school, and your mom now has
depression. You harm everyday, your sisters happy but look at the
pain she has put on everyone else.
So before you decide to take your life, please listen to this.
Listen to it carefully; do you want this to happen to your
bestfriend? Or your mom? Or your sister? Or any of your family?
Please get help. Don't be scared to ask... Someone cares,
someone loves you and you are beautiful❤