Close your eyes, take a deep breath and just imagine this--
You have just woken up, you have a sister that is a year older than you. She is always in her room, so quiet. She used to be the one that was so outgoing and loud, but everything has changed. Usually your sister is up before you, but she isn't in the lounge or the kitchen, you think she has just gone out for a walk... You don't worry too much.
You go onto the computer and check all your social networking sites, twitter, tublr, facebook and you see her status', "This time, I'm leaving forever... I'm sorry if this hurts anyone but its just the way it has to be." You start to worry running round the house calling her name but you get no reply, you ask your mom where she has gone, she says she went on a walk so you go to the park where she normally is and you see her sitting on the bench crying, you run over to her, you hold her, you tell her "Everything is going to be okay," but she screams asking you to just end this pain, with a rope beside her and pills in front of her. You make her stand up and you hold her tight walking away, you're just about to turn the corner when you see these girls walking towards you, they start laughing and your sister cries a little more. You keep walking with your sister tight in your arms but the girls grab her from behind, they tell her how worthless she is. You try to scream but another girl grabs you too. She won't let you go. Your sister is screaming for your help, she yells to you "I love you, I'm so sorry" the three girls let her go and the other girl let's you go to but your sister has run away nowhere to be found. You go back to the park but this time the ropes gone and the pills have too, you start crying and you call your mom to tell her what has happened, she doesn't say anything, she's in shock. She rushes home, you're still looking for your sister. She's your world, she's your rock, she's the one that keeps you here today, without her, you're nothing. And without her Your moms nothing too. You walk through a forest and you get a bad feeling, the tears are just rushing down your face, you're shaking more than ever. You walk a little bit more and you find the pill container... Empty. You scream your sisters name, crying even more but there was no response you know something has happened. You turn the corner of the forest and you see your sister lying there, blood protruding from her wrists, a blade lying innocently next to her. She looks peaceful only taking a breath every minute. You immediately call the ambulance and they arrive just after your mom. Your mom screams; this is her baby, this is her best friend, and this girl is her world. The ambulance takes your sister away and you go too, they can't get any response from her now, they're only a few minutes away from the hospital now but you know she's gone, you know she's dead. You can't do this without her, right? You begin to beg and plead and ask her why. You arrive at the hospital and they rush her into emergency. Your mom is in too much shock to even talk. 10 minutes later the doctor comes out, your mom stands up tears rushing down her face, the doctor says "I'm sorry for what I'm about to tell you but we could not save her... It was too late." At this point in time your mom drops to the floor, her whole world has just taken a crashing. You run outside and you can't stop screaming, you're finding it hard to breath and you don't want to live anymore. A few days later is her funeral, so many people turn up. They al line up to see her, she looks peaceful, she eventually looks happy, but you're not... Your moms not... And your whole family is devastated. Her bestfriend hasn't talked to anyone since she found out, her bestfriend is now harming herself. Your mom looks out the window for more than half the day and you can't see yourself going back to school for a while. No-one has entered her room, and it will stay that way, her door will remain shut and no-one will go in. A year passes and a few weeks ago you sisters bestfriend committed suicide. Her bestfriend made a promise to your sister, "you go, I go" her bestfriend? Well she kept that promise... You still haven't returned to school, and your mom now has depression. You harm everyday, your sisters happy but look at the pain she has put on everyone else.
So before you decide to take your life, please listen to this. Listen to it carefully; do you want this to happen to your bestfriend? Or your mom? Or your sister? Or any of your family? Please get help. Don't be scared to ask... Someone cares, someone loves you and you are beautiful❤
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