I’m not giving up just yet, as much as i want to just sit on the ground and look no one in the eye for days on end, i’m not going to do that, as much as i hate being put down, laughed at, looked at, judged, i’m not going to let myself give up.

     I need to give up on being so hard on myself.  i’m beautiful, stunning even in the eyes of the people that matter, i’m weird, but that’s not always a bad thing, it just means i think differently than you.  I’m going to start saying whats on my mind more, whether or not people care to listen, and i’m going to stop letting people push me around. I’m not a door mat, and i will not be used as such.

     i’m going to start eating again, i mean i do eat now, but then i just throw it all up - I'm going to stop that. sure i'm not the skinniest person ever but i'm beautiful the way i am. i have CURVES.  i’m going to wear dresses, because I like my legs, i wont wear makeup some days. i'll wear my hair natural to school with no makeup and sweatpants because anyone that doesnt like me that way doesnt deserve me with makeup and looking "sexy"

I wont kill myself. because i’m not ending just yet.
 

I’m a semi colon.