A little story...
(If you have time to read this, plz read with this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVjsGKrE6E8).
Well, um... I don't know how to explain this... Ok. All started when i was 6... Obviously my fathers said that i was "Beauty, perfect, the most beautiful in the whole wide world" Blah blah, but my classmates said others things... They said that i was ugly, nerd, "conceited", fat, dwarf of stature, and others... i started to cry every nights, thinking that i was all those things... That's lasted until i was 10, when i changed of school, i was SO nervous, thinking about how i would behave to be "Liked". This school was, and is, very refined, because, previously, there was a palace of a gentleman, who said that when he died, his house was to be a school for poor children (At that time there was public, now you can pay or not pay, u don't pay if you're very bad economially, and my parents can pay 4 my school, thank goodness.) I had several friends, and i still have, cause i still go to that school. One day in the holidays this year (January and February) I made an account on Stardoll, just because I remembered that I played it when I was 7 years old. There were many changes in Stardoll, been rising at level 8 and I created another account because there was a mistake with my old account. I found several friends, because, as was the summer holidays, I was connected every day. But every time it hurt more not meet my friends, I know, sounds silly, very silly. But, ie, if you knew a friend on Facebook and you do not know personally, what would you do? How would you feel? It's basically the same. The ties of friendship with my friends became stronger when I created a twitter account to talk to them and know them in pics and videos. I fell in love with my best friend from twitter. Yes. Sounds TOO crazy. I always thought they were fake photos. But he never asked suspiciously like "What are the names of your parents? Where do you live? What school do you go? How is your full name? Have Facebook? Give me your photos." He never told me anything about that.You have no idea how I fell for this guy. It was very special to me. I told him that I liked about 8 months after meeting him, I was very in love. But I remarked that, "Oh no ... Em, you know how much I love you. You're my best friend, I love you a lot, but ... you know ... bff Only, do not get mad ... I love you <3 "Yes, I even have that stupid message. Since then nothing was the same. I started to cut myself. Several times I was scared because I had blood on my wrist and could not stop. There were times when we did not think, I just knew that I was the ugliest girl in the world. The only friends that i Told them i was cutting myself Were the friends that i do not meet. And then I told two friends from school, but they just looked at me and said nothing. Now i feel insecure, very insecure, i want a new life, a new face, a perfect face, like acacia brinley face, she's so perfect. It sounds so silly, i know but... Omg i just need a new face, a good stature and body, a pretty hair, a perfect nose, a perfect smile and theeths, it's sounds very shallow, but... Never happened to you?
Amenah
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