This is to my ex boyfriend, Mikey.
I want to let you know how sorry I actually am for hurtng you and
making you believe our relationship was a game, it was never a
game to me. You were the first boy I have every truly loved. And I
promise you that. I'm sorry that after a year and three months of never
doing anything, or going anywhere, and always doing sexual things,
that I lost interest in you and stopped loving you. People say that if
it's true love, it never fades away, but I'm not sure if that's true. I wish
I could love you, I wish I could love you so badly but I just can't.
On another note, I'm glad that I don't love you any longer because after
we broke up, you went after my old best friend who brought hell to my life
when I was with you, and that caused you to despise her for hurting the one
you love. But obviously you're the only who didn't love me. I read a saved
message in my phone from many moons ago, it said: I love you, and I have
known ever since we sat akwardly in that room together. And I will love you
until my last breath. I wish that would stop playing in my mind like a skipping
disk, but it won't. I wish that I could text you, but I don't even think I want to do
that because my whole family is so angry with you. As am I. But I forgive everyone
rehardless of what they have done to me.
You've hurt me, by dating her. But I did let you know that it wouldn't last very long because
she was just using you to get back at me because she thought I slept with her ex,
which I did not do, but that's the only reason why she dated you.
I think I will just cry my whole entire day away.