I ruined my family.
My parents are constantly fighting, and they plan on getting a divorce.
All because of me.
It all happened Monday, when I finally broke.
I broke down because my mom called me emo, one more time because I spent my birthday money on a shirt that says,"Bite me!" With a t-rex on it.
I started crying, and I finally told her how I feel.
I told her how she's my biggest bully and that she makes me feel horrible about myself all the time. That, I hate myself because of her. I told her how I dress and act just to please her, and that I'm afraid to be around her because I'm scared she'll cut me down again.
She cries every day now, and, she hates herself.
My dad threatened that he would take us kids away from her if she doesn't change.
It is all my fault that this is happening.
She tells me its not, and that what I said I ment.. But honestly, I hate myself because I'm just a horrible person. It's not because of her, its because of me.
All of this, happened on my birthday.
I've cried everyday since.
I feel absolutely terrible.
I feel.. absolutely alone in this house.
I turned to smoking.. again.
Honestly, I almost killed myself yesterday by swallowing pills.
I don't want to live anymore.
I need help.