You strike me as someone with a healthy amount of confidence and a great head on her shoulders, and I know we're all entitled to our own thoughts and feelings (insecurity being one of those that naturally come with being human), but I want you to know that even before I had the pleasure of speaking with you, I thought you were insanely gorgeous. You have striking, model-esque features like full lips, a soft complexion, and bright blue eyes that shine with liveliness. My opinion of you was only heightened once we started talking and I realized that not only were you beautiful beyond belief on the outside, but you were also a compassionate, intelligent, and intriguing human being. You've made me fall in love with you as a person, and it didn't take much time or effort on your part. You are just naturally a beautiful person with this charisma and charm about you that is very difficult to overlook and even more difficult not to love. If I can see it, I guarantee you others can as well. Now, granted, there are cruel people in this world we live in and not everyone you encounter will like you (and some will, unfortunately, make that dislike obvious), but you can't control that. You shouldn't try to, either. Don't let the fear of a few people's opinions keep you from sharing your wonderful gift of humor and kindness with the rest of the world. If you want to be a YouTube personality, by all means, go for it. There is no criteria you should feel you have to meet in order to do something you want to do, and you are perfectly capable and deserving of this, and don't ever let anyone make you feel like you aren't.