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Chapter 2:
Jacob woke me up the next morning, even though I had told him I wished to be left alone. "C'mon, Audrey! You're going to wanna see this!" He told me, picking me up out of the bed. "What?" I whispered still half asleep. "Y'know how you think Amy had the perfect life; perfect friends, family, boyfriend, on and on? She didn't." He said, smiling. "She did. But even if not, how would this make me feel ANY better, Jacob?" I replied, a tad snotty.
He smiled, "You'll see." He whispered. He took me into a room with a computer, a book, and some drawings. "Look at this stuff Audrey. She didn't like everything, but she knew when and where to hide it so it looked like she was perfect." He attepmted to put me down and I allowed yet I didn't want to wait and hear what he was saying. "...... people do sometimes......" I heard, but I was already looking at the stuff thrown around the room. "Come with me," He said, grabbing my shaking hand and leading me to the computer.
The computer was on a website I had never heard of. "A Venting Site For You!" The title was saying. What did that mean? Venting? Did Amy.... vent? Without ANYONE but HER knowing? I think she did, but I still wanted to read the stuff. I pulled up and chair and hit the button that said "See AMY'S Quotes?" It took me to a place flooded with feelings, thoughts, quotes, and everything else. "When I die," the one I was reading said "I want my family to find this; and I want them to KNOW that HE cheated on me." It finished. I couldn't help but think; Scott. I looked at the date, and it said 2.22.01.; three weeks before her death. I looked at one next to it and it read "If they ever saw this...... Would they see JUST how broken I am inside?" I was dying inside to see all these feelings she DIDN'T share with us. Finally, when I began crying, Jacob took me to the notebook.
The notebook was old and looked burned a bit, but still in reading condition. I opened the cover and read the first page outloud "I, Amy, will write in this diary. Openly, freely, and without hesitant thought. I will keep this throughout my life and fill it with the memories, feelings, and thoughts. This now means whoever is holding this right now, is holding my life in their very hands. Do not think me wrong for the things I am writing, they are just MY opinnion, and I love my own not anyone else's. Please family, if you are seeing this do not feel horrible for the things I have written, but embrace them as ways' to change yourself. Friends, if you are seeing this; I love you all VERY, very much, but I cannot keep the horrid feelings inside, I'm sorry." Then I knew just how broken my sister was, and that I could've helped.
The first page statedl: "Hello, although this is not the beginning of my life this is a day I'd like to start on, thank you. My parents today are being very uneasy today. They suspect something I guess, and I am not aware of this thing yet but I think I know what it is; My cheating on Scott. Yes, it is true. I did not mean it but it happened. I was sitting with my ex boyfriend on the SubWay and he grabbed my hand. I was reminded of how much I loved him and how much he had loved me. He pulled me into a kiss and I accpeted. It felt so wrong to do while dating Scott, but he had done the same with Kristy! I had seen it, more than once. I still loved him enough to keep him in my life though. My sister is being her usual annoying self! I HATE the relationship she and Jacob have; he's SO commited to her and so in love with her that he'd never even think of cheating on her and neither would she. Hmm, maybe I should talk to Scott about this? Maybe not. However if I keep it to myself I am lying, and if I do tell him, Scott might become mad. Oh please, oh please, help. Yours, Amy♥"
I couldn't do it, I ran out of the room before Jacob could comfort me. I pulled the door to the front of the house open and went to my car. The keys were in my pocket and I pulled them out, opened the car door, sat inside, let out a GIANT scream then turned the car on and drove to Signaling Love Cemetery.