you described it as "the time you were in the mood
where you didn't want to meet or do
anything" in such a round about way. i
don't have to spell it out for you, we learnt about this
together. starts with D ends with pression. you always throw that
word around when you mean sad. so why couldn't you put two
and two together? of course you knew, you're smart afterall.
if not you, then who else would notice? i knew that you just
didn't want to make me uncomfortable, but that's a scary
thought...because that's how people slip away. it's not
your fault though, it'll never be your fault. i just never
want to hear you describe it that way. i had to laugh it off, but
you made me feel like such a pain. i knew i was being a nuisance
so i distanced myself. it wasn't necessarily a call for help
but just time needed to recuperate. you told me recently i need
to share more with you. that it's better than keeping it
bottled up. but i hate attention and pity. in a crooked way i
prefer it this way, although all that's left is me feeling
bitter. i'll overcome this too.