And I was fooling myself with this whole tough girl act. I feel sometimes too and I want to cry sometimes too and I need a hug every now and again just like everyone else does. I don't know why I set myself up to this high standard, where I force myself to hide and contain all these strong emotions. I don't know when I learnt how to bottle things up but I've been doing it so long, it's almost like second nature. I can't open up, I can't talk my feelings out. But I wish I could. I used to think keeping everything inside made me strong, because no one else knew the full picture and no-one could use my weaknesses against me. But now I've realised that doing that just makes me tired. Biting my lip when I'm about to burst just leaves me so very, very drained.