all i can think
about is what i have become. I have somehow become one of the
girls i have always rolled my eyes at and would deem stupid. I
have become that girl who misses him so much that no matter what
he had done or continioues to do to hurt me, i wil always accept
him into my opening arms with a genuine smile. I am the girl who
believes him when he tells me he wants me and still loves me and
takes his klndness as hope that we can one day be as we once
were. I am the girl who cries when he hurts me again and am
surprised that he would do so. I am the girl who is so in love
and afraid to let go that i take the pain he inflicts on me over
and over again because nothings more painful than not having him
in my life at all. It has taken months to realize what i deserve,
what i should tolerate and what is pointless.
I was that girl, she's dead
now
