I am 15
I lost my identity at 9
I began staying home alone for days at 9
My mother became a drunk when i was 9
my mom cheated on my father when he was deployed & i knew when i was 9
My parents divorced when i was 10
when i was 10 my mom chose her husband over me
when i was 10 the cops tryed to arrest me
I was bullied since 10 at 12 different schools
I began to sneek out at 11
I smoked at 11
I had my inocence taken at 11
I began starveing myself at 11
I got high at 11
I began to self-injure at 12
the cops threatened to arrest me at 12
I began to get drunk at 12
when i was 12 my father was diagnosed with severe PTSD
My father began to hit me at11
when i was 11 the cops threatened to arrest me again
I began to feel ashamed of my existence at 12
I was diagnosed with EDNOS at 13
I was diagnosed with deppression & bipolar disorder at 14
I tryed to recover at 14
I still dont understand why so many bad things happen at 15
I am 15 and i have felt great pain
I am 15 and the pain never ends
But...
I am 15 and i recognize i should feel worthy of happiness.there was a time that i didnt know that. I still dont feel worthy but thats not the point . the point is im getting better. the point is there is more beyond the pain. and i will garentee you wont regret the trail you took to get there. the point is i have hope now. the big difference between pain and happiness is Jesus Christ. choseing him wont assure no pain but it will allow you to persevere.