I am sorry for filling
you with beer and bad thoughts and then asking you why you
shook. I am sorry for pinching you, for hitting you, for
bruising the thin-skinned parts of you. i am sorry for the
names i called you when we were fighting. you are not ugly.
you are not useless. you would not be better off gone.
i'm sorry for almost throwing you out into the street
because my sadness was too much for me. I'm sorry for
carving my fingernails into your thigh and then resenting the
way people asked, "how'd that happen?" I'm
sorry for plucking you and nicking your calves with drugstore
razors. i'm sorry i let some people see you in the
moonlight. they didn't deserve to know the color of your
hips like i do. i'm sorry for leaving you convulsing over
a toilet boy over some boy. i'm sorry i did not thank you
for simply trying to take me where i wanted to go. i'm
sorry i screamed at you to shrink, shrink, shrink when all
you could do was grow. i'm sorry that this apology is ten
years too late. i'm sorry that it will probably come
again i'm sorry that i do not treat anybody else as
poorly as i have treated you. i'm sorry that i am
constantly learning who to love you, when you have never once
doubted how you feel about me. i'm sorry in ways i have
not yet learned to communicate.
- an apology to my body by lora mathis
SmileyFacesAreAmazing · 9 years ago
I JUST REREAD THIS AND THERES A TYPO GAH
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