Some of my life story 


June/12/14
 
I’m okay I guess I really don’t know how I feel tho. I just wanna die or cut. I cant take this hate and crap I have only ate one thing today and don’t know if I want to eat again today. I mean I love my life and things right now but still. I think I will be okay but im not sure I need my best friend to talk to but they don’t have there phone with them and I cant because I got a new phone number and they did to. I do have Xbox and I think I can talk to them but I’m not sure so what should I do about things I’m okay but I need to feel loved and things. Just gotta be positive about things and I will be okay.
June/13/14
I wish I was doing better but I know I will never. Sometimes I wish I was not leaving for some reasons but others I don’t know. I wish I was okay but I will never be okay. I want to be loved by my friends and family but I don’t know if I can be loved of how I feel now. I just want to be okay again but how can I now?  I try to do my best and all but I cant anymore im just slowly giving up on everything. So I just don’t know anymore 


Everything was okay intill this day 

June/21/14 
Pixie(me) : ~Phone rings Its austin (was my bf but now ex, Anwsers it~ Hellow?
Austin: Hey pixie we need to talk.
Me: OK?
AUstin: Sorry pixies it over
Me: Why ~sounds of crying~
Austin: Bc of what you did
Me: What did I do?
Austin: YOu kissed Blake ~Sounds mad~ 
Me: No I  didnt austin
Austin: WHatever BYe ~hang up~
Me: ~Textings Blake~ (Not going into it)


Next day at school 
Blake: HEY Pixie
Me: Hi Blake ~looks sad and goings into the kuch room and sits and puts head down~
Blake: ~Goes and sits with my friends~
Home
Pixie: ~Looks at my phone and looks at it 20 miss calls form Austin !7 Texts form austin, I text him back sorry Austin but bye~