shescrazy19 posted a quote
March 31, 2017 11:46am UTC
I thought you changed your mind; didnt sleep all night thinking about everything I use to fear with you leaving. Its crazy. How am I supposed to promise you anything like actually living my life when I dont even know what its like to really live because the only definition of life I know is what we showed to eachother. The f*cking love we had for eachother is so unreal that it hurts my chest to think about it. I can promise you this though. My love for you will never die. My memories of you and us, those will never leave my mind; no matter how bad I wish they could or they would.. They wont leave. &' Yeah about Gilbert; I found out that morning and my heart sank. I dont know if its because he was my first boyfriend or maybe because I thought he was working on a better life; but the whole situation is sh*tty. I just dont think about it. &' With my focus on blocking that out, apparently that has opened the flood gates to the entrance of our memories.
No didn't change my mind its just been a really really long process. Suppose to pay my car off but think once I show that I've been making payments they'll waive it.
I am trying so fücking hard. I’m trying hard with my grades, relationships, family, etc. and when someone tells me I need to try more and work harder, it fücking hurts because I am trying my fücking hardest and I’m sorry it’s not good enough for you. I just want someone to be proud of me.
shescrazy19 posted a quote
March 31, 2017 11:54pm UTC
In a way I guess I do know what its like to live without you. But youve always been here; always in reaching distance. I dont know what I'll do without my solace. Without the only part of me that, hopes. Theres still so much I have to say. So much I need to tell you that you dont know about. I just guess I thought I had more time to tell it all to you.