it's gonna be weird.
going off to college in the fall.
it seems like it's so far away from now.
but in reality it's two and a half months away.
i'm so unsed to going to school and then coming home to my mother.
but when i go off to school, i'll be waking up in my dorm room with a roomate.
i'm scared i will hate it and i will be totally lost and make no friends.
i've always been so shy.
on the plus side of going close (closer than where i wanted to go)
is that i will be going to school with some classmates that i had.
because i know that some of them will get homesick and not be able to go home.
and i know that at first i will get homesick and want to be with people from home.
and they will be there and i will see them and i will remember home.
since the school i will be attending will be 2 hours away i won't be able to get home.
i'm also going to be going to school with my 19 year old coach, which is also strange.
but it's cool because i will be able to ask her about the campus and meet some of her friends since i am also friends with her.
it's just weird to think that i'm finally leaving.
people always say that i will miss home. and i know i will.
i already miss it here and i haven't even left yet.
i just always figured this feeling would be different.
relief. happy. or even joyful.
and believe me, it is all those things.
but i'm scared and nervous all combined.
i know i'll be fine when i get there.
but it's the getting there is the hard thing.