I'm not one of the prettiest girls in school, Or the skinniest.. I'm not the smartest kid in my class, or the most popular. I'm not very funny, or fun to be around. I'm not very nice, or honest. I'm not very sweet, or innocent. I'm not confident, I know my flaws. I'm not strong, I've lost hope. I'm judgemental, and a hipocrite. I pretend to feel pretty I pretend to feel smart I pretend to feel happy I pretend to feel anything... But the reality is, I don't feel anything. I feel nothing more than hurt and insecurities. I can't win, I can't forget. I've given up on this battle, I've given up on myself. I don't know what else to do, I just want it to be over. I am human, and I surrender..
Dangerous Chapter Twenty Five ♦ Lauren's P.O.V ♦ Aden stood there tongue tied as he glanced at his dad and at me.I stood there too afraid that if I moved someone would attack me.Slowly I bowed my head and tears rolled down.I knew Aden wouldn't chose me he had barely even known me but I had understanded his pity so well.It hurted to see him in pain.It just did.Aden was now in a dilemma and I prayed that he chose well.If it was God's wish then it was.I couldn't fight destiny no matter how hard I try. "Chose Aden.Her or me?"The devil said now grinning at me.I felt replused by his smile and wondered what he was doing to Aden mentally. "Father but I-"He was cut off. "No Aden.Don't do this.Please I'm not worth it.Please..!"I begged with my eyes full of tears. "You better listen to that girl son she has some sense instead of running around the otherworld thinking she rules it."The devil said as he glared at me. "But Lauren I...."Aden trailed off looking at the ground. "Chose now!"The devil demanded. "You want me to chose?Then I'll chose you God damm evilness."Aden said breaking free and grabbing my hand. "Aden I..."I leaned against him then straightened up. "No father don't say anything now.You killed my mom in your revenge and for fun you feast on women.All these times you forced me to be on woman and now this?You want to take the love of my life away from me then you will have to fight."He said standing in front of me. "Aden I will fight beside you."I declared bravely standing next to him. The devil's face twisted as he seethingly said,"Aww so goody goody love.Too bad your going to die." He darted towards us as I punched him.We fought for awhile as the devil glared at me.Quickly Aden grabbed my hand as we dived in the portal.We landed in green fields as Aden landed on me.I opened my eyes to realize we were in Collen which was 10 miles near Abbot Hill.It was going to take a day at the most at foot if we tried but I was tired.I glanced at Aden who was in awe. "I can be in the sun.I ....did He forgive me?"He said. A shimmery golden-y light came as I saw a man standing there with a smile.I realized it was God who was there. Comment for a reminder. A/N:Hey guys thank you for first of all reading this but I need to say I might not write stories after this for awhile and it depends.I won't be on too much so I hope you understand. OOO seems like Lauren is getting a happy moment.Well not anymore.I'm here and I know everything.Your past and the future so you might as well give in b***h.For all I care is that you vanish forever.Seems like this girl isn't getting a fairytale ending.Don't forget the beast doesn't always hide.Kisses.-S
"People think that you're like a car in a body shop. You go in, they fix you, and you're out, and you work like you're brand new. It doesn't work like that, you know? It takes constant fixing." Demi Lovato
In Sixth Grade Everyone Called Me Their "Mom", In Seventh I Became "Panda" && My Bestfriend "Bamboo" Two Days Later I Was "MamaPanda" && That's Stuck Through Till This Day, In My Friends Phones && On Facebook. That's Just My Name Now.
These are kinda fun :D A. Put your music player on shuffle B.) Press forward for each question. C.) Use the song title as the answer to the question. D.) NO CHEATING!!! 1.) How am I feeling today? Caught Like A Fly by Falling In Reverse 2.) Where will I get married? Crushcrushcrush (live) by Paramore 3.) What is my best friend's theme song? Feeling Sorry (Acoustic) by Paramore 4.)What is school like? This by Ed Sheeran 5.) What is the best thing about you? Heart Attack by One Direction 6.) How is today going to be? We Are Who We Are by Little Mix 7.) What is in store for this weekend? A Party Song (The Walk Of Shame) by All Time Low 8.) What song describes your parents? Lego House by Ed Sheeran 9.) How is my life going? Falling Asleep On A Stranger by Pierce The Veil 10.) What song will they play at my funeral? I'm not okay (I promise) by My Chemical Romance 11.) How does the world see me? Conspiracy by Paramore 12.) What do my friends really think of me? Riot! By Cher Lloyd 13) Who absolutly loves me? Yeah Boy And Doll Face by Pierce The Veil 14.) How can I make myself happy? When It Rains by Paramore 15.) What should I do with my life? My Number One by Paramore 16.) Will I ever have children? Hello Cold World by Paramore 17.) What is some good advice? Bad Influence by P!nk 18.) What do I think my current theme song is? Decoy (live) by Paramore 19.) What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Ignorance (acoustic) by Paramore 20.)What type of men do you like? My Heart Is Broken by Evanescence 21.) Will you get married? Haunted by Evanescence 22.) What should I do with my love life? Sink or Swim by Falling In Reverse 23.) Where will you live? Never Go Back by Evanescence 24.) What will your dying words be? London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines by Panic! At The Disco 25.) What is your situation at school? Atlantis by Ellie Goulding 26.) Who is your crush? It's All Your Fault by P!nk 27.) How do you react to rejection? Lose Yourself by Eminem 28.) How will high school be? Same Love (feat. Mary Lambert) by Macklemore 29.) Life Story? Return The Favour by All Time Low 30.) What was your last relationship like? The Piano Knows Something I Don't by Panic! At The Disco 31.) What was your best relationship like? Cassie by Flyleaf 32.) What you want to do right now? Summer Love by One Direction 33.)What happened to your life? U.N.I by Ed Sheeran 34.) Song to play at your wedding? Fences by Paramore nmq, credit to caoimhs289, I just changed the answers to my own
"Love is a decision, it is a judgment, it is a promise. If love were only a feeling, there would be no basis for the promise to love each other forever. A feeling comes and it may go. How can I judge that it will stay forever, when my act does not involve judgment and decision."