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Unmasked_Identity

1. Unmasked_Identity
   posted a quote
   July 31, 2012 7:15pm UTC
   Maybe...
   Maybe this time I'll do it. Maybe I'll pick up a sharp object and I won't just hold it to
   my skin. Maybe I''ll actually cut again. I don't know. Based on how I feel now, It's
   definitely possible. Maybe this time I'll go too far. I don't know what to do anymore.
   I don't feel the need to be alive.
   
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2. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 31, 2012 1:02am UTC
   Sometimes I feel like a Monday.
   Hated and underappreciated.
   
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3. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 29, 2012 12:23am UTC
   Update
   Hi everyone. I know I kind of went MIA for a couple of days. Things have been really tough lately. I've learned some things that I didn't ever want to hear. I also passed on a wonderful opportunity to get help. I just don't think I'm ready yet. My friend recently told me something about herself that I would have never expected and I'm not acting any different than I normally would. This gives me some hope that I can tell her one day about my problem and she'll be supportive of me. Everything has just been very overwhelming lately. I'm going through a bit of a hard time right now. To be honest, I really don't know how I'm going to make it through this. It's going to be really hard. I want to thank Witty for all of the support I've recieved and I can only hope that you'll continue to be supportive as I continue to share things with you.
   If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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4. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 24, 2012 11:36pm UTC
   I'm struggling today
   It's been a rough day. I've been struggling to keep my mind out of the dark place. I keep going back to the place where I don't feel the need to live. I just want to curl up in a corner and cease to exist. It's been hard not to do just that. I want to become invisible. I want to watch the world go by without actually being a part of it anymore. I don't want to think this. I want to be able to live a normal life. I don't want to be in this mentality anymore.
   If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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5. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 22, 2012 12:08am UTC
   July 21, 2012
   Today has been a day of mixed emotions. I think a lot of it is anger and a lot of it is sadness. Anger at all of the complications I'm dealing with in my life. I don't really know where the sadness is coming from. I just feel this ache in my chest and I want to collapse. It's a hard thing to feel, but it's something I've felt before. I had some happy moments today. I got to spend time with people I care about. I feel a bit of irritation towards my oldest sibling for being incredibly rude this morning. It's hard to deal with. I feel hatred towards those who put me in this emotional state. They have no idea the effect their words had on me all those years ago. It was the start of everything. Overall, today has been...interesting. The most prominent emotion right now is fear. I feel fear for what the future holds for me. I know it sounds silly, but sometimes I fear that God enjoys my pain and misery. I know he doesn't, but sometimes it feels that way.
   If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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6. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 21, 2012 11:07pm UTC
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7. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 21, 2012 7:09pm UTC
   Last night...
   I wrote my suicide note on my iPod, then deleted it. I think it helped me a lot. I realized that yeah, some things and some people really suck, but there are a lot of good people in my life. I've got a lot of friends that care about me. They're there for me whenever, and when I'm ready, I might talk to some of them about my problem. It'll probably be a while before that happens, but I just might do it. It occured to me that they might actually understand. I've got plenty of people I could talk to, I'm just too scared. With time, I think I can get over that fear and really start to get better with the help of my friends.
   If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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8. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 20, 2012 11:08pm UTC
   What would my family do if I told them?
   My family would probably think I'm faking and tell me to get over it. They wouldn't take me seriously. And if they did, I would never be treated the same again. One of my relatives had depression at one point and my parents still don't treat her the same. My family is too high and mighty to believe that one of their own could have this type of problem.
   If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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9. Unmasked_Identity
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   July 19, 2012 11:42pm UTC
   One month, 15 days It has been one month and fifteen days since I last cut and I can't thank my witty girls enough for the support. It's been really tough lately and I've been struggling. Every day I've got that temptation. Today has been a particularily bad day, but I've managed not to self harm. I keep telling myself how proud I am that I haven't cut in over a month. I'm on track to recovery, but I feel as if I could relapse and hurt myself at any given moment. It's hard, but I'm trying to stay strong. Thank you witty, for supporting me in my journey to being fully recovered. It really does mean a lot to me. I am forever grateful ♥If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
   
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10. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 19, 2012 11:32pm UTC
    Is it hard to hide it from my parents? Sometimes, yeah. It can be really hard to hide it from my parents. But most of the time I'm glad they don't know. If they knew, it would only make everything harder. My siblings would be dissapointed in me and my parents would think I'm crazy. I know I need professional help and I can't get it without my parents finding out, but I just can't tell them. They've got enough to deal with. I don't know how to handle this. I'm trying to recover on my own, but it's tough. I don't know how to help myself. I don't know who to turn to. I don't like hiding it, but I need to. It really sucks sometimes. They believe all of the lies I tell. I've got no one, and I think that only makes my sadness worse.If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been uploaded.
    
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11. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 16, 2012 12:50am UTC
    Questions from Secret_Confessions Q: I've cut a few times but when I can't find anything to cut with I dig my nails into my skin until I bleed. Have you ever done this?A: I did that a few times when I first started. It didn't work so well.Q: I really need some tips so I don't hurt myself again..A: One of the methods I use to avoid cutting came from codababy37. Here's the quote that helps me: http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/5901572It has been extremely helpful. I also like to do "yoga breathing." It's very calming. Take deep breaths from your nose until you feel a little bit calmer. Sometimes I lay on the floor or my bed and stare at the ceiling and tell myself that I know I shouldn't do it and I try to list all of the reasons why I know I shouldn't do it. Other times taking a nap or listening to music helps. I'm also a writer. I use that as an outlet. Writing down how I'm feeling generally helps to. I hope this helps you. Stay strong. Together, we can get better. If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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12. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 16, 2012 12:05am UTC
    What advice would I give... to someone who doesn't cut but is thinking about it?DON'T DO IT! It's a nasty habit to get into. Once you start, it's really hard to stop. It's very hard to ask for help. Some people (such as myself) can't ask for help. JUST DON'T DO IT! pleaseIf you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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13. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 16, 2012 12:03am UTC
    What is my main concern if someone were to find out? I don't want people to tiptoe around me like I'm made of glass and I'll shatter if they step the wrong way. I don't want people to treat me like I'm so fragile, I can't handle anything. They already treat me like a little kid and won't tell me anything if someone in or close to our family is having health issues or something. I don't want to make that any worse. That would only make me feel worse.If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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14. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 15, 2012 11:59pm UTC
    Why haven't I told anyone? I was going to tell my best friend because I thought she would encourage me to get help. To be safe, I wanted to get her opinion on people who cut first, just to make sure I wouldn't destroy our friendship or anything by telling her. I learned that she has a very low opinion of people who cut. I'll admit that I used to have a low-ish opinion of people who cut before I started, but it wasn't as low as her opinion. I learned that I can't tell my best friend everything. There are secrets I have to keep. I can't afford to lose my best friend. Sometimes she's the only person I have on my side.I want to tell my other friends because I would hope they'd encourage me to get help and help me to recover, but thinking about what they did the last time someone in our group revealed they were a cutter, it's not such a good idea. I can't afford to lose them either. I need my friends. They're the only thing keeping me alive on really bad days.I wouldn't dare think of telling my family. That would result in them keeping a close eye on me and they irritate me enough as it is. I don't want them around me any more than they already are. They don't know how to be nice.If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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15. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 11, 2012 10:21pm UTC
    Today... Was one of the first days I've been super happy in a long time. I got relax, see family, and just have a wonderful day. I feel great. I don't feel sad or anything. It's the greatest feeling in the world. I feel free. I feel happy. I don't know what else to say other than I hope this feeling continues. Thanks for all of the support my fellow wittians. You guys are fantastic(:
    
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16. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 10, 2012 6:43pm UTC
    Why haven't I gotten help? To be completely honest, I don't know how to get help. I don't want to tell my parents. They wouldn't understand. I can't tell my sister. She'd be a b*tch about it. I can't tell any of my friends. The last girl that was in our group that cut is now no longer a part of our group and she's hated by most of the people in the school. I'm still friends with her but her former "friends" ditched her when she tried to talk to us. I can't afford to lose my friends. It would not be a good situation for me to be in again. Honestly, I think I threw away my one chance at getting help. The only adult I would have trusted at my school left because she got a better offer at another school. I don't know how to get help anymore.If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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17. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 9, 2012 10:40pm UTC
    Do I want to get help? I've wanted to get help from the day I realized I have a problem. I want to get help so badly. I don't want to have this problem, this addiction anymore. I never wanted this. We always say to ourselves, "I could never cut. I could never have depression. I could never do this or have that." But in all reality, we all have some type of vulnerability that can land us in the situation of cutting, being depressed, etc. No one person is immune to these problems. We're all capable of reaching the point where we feel that need or that sadness. I believe it's a sickness, but it can be cured. I want to be cured of this addiction.If you have any questions about cutting, etc., please feel free to ask. I am willing to answer any questions you may have. It helps me as well as gives you answers. I will answer any questions in a quote and comment on your profile when that quote has been posted.
    
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18. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 8, 2012 10:38pm UTC
    Why do I continue to cut? Somtimes I'm not really sure why I continue. I think it's because I want to take myself away from that emotional pain, if only for a few moments. Sometimes I see it as my only escape. I continue because I like the rush. It's weird, but when I'm in that emotional state, I like to feel my own pain. Actually, I don't just like it, I love it. I don't know if that's normal or not. I continue to cut because life continues to get tougher and tougher and I can't handle it. It's like the pain soothes the emotional ache for a little while.
    
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19. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 8, 2012 7:22pm UTC
    Questions from Rhyburgie2 Q: What do you use to cut? A regular razor to shave your legs?A: I've tried using my razor but it never really worked very well. I've kind of transferred to using whatever I can find. I've used the tip of my compass (the math kind), scissors, pins, clips, an untwisted paperclip, etc.Q: What do you use to clean up with?A: The way I cut gives the pain without the blood so I don't have to clean anything up. I get the pain and a deep cut usually without bleeding. The few times I have bled, I just used a tissue until it stopped.Q: How did your parents not find out?A: I have a two dogs and a cat and I'm also very clumsy. I usually just blame it on a pet or say I must have caught it on something or I just have no idea what happened.If anyone else has questions feel free to ask. I am willing to answer just about anything. Answering your questions requires me to really think about the answers and admit things to myself so it helps me as well as gives you some information.
    
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20. Unmasked_Identity
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    July 8, 2012 6:47pm UTC
    Cutting...When and why did I start? I can never remember exactly when I started. I think it was a year, maybe a year and a half ago. I started because I couldn't take the pain anymore. It was a rush and a major relief...for a little while. The rush and relief turned into anger with myself for cutting. This only made me feel worse so I continued in my downward spiral of emotions. The feelings became more and more frequent. The urges to cut became harder to surpress. I went for some time without cutting, but I eventually went back to it. I guess I really just started cutting because I thought it would end the pain. Little did I know that the pain only continues as does the addiction to slicing a sharp object across my skin. If you have any questions for me out of curiousity or because you think they might help me (since that is the point of these quotes), I would be happy to answer them in my next quote.
    
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